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Taught by experience,
written by Ruth Lamb.

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Chapter one Leading Strings.

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We might be servants,
but we are not slaves.

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I wouldn't stay
in the best place in the world

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if I had to be treated
like a child.

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Never allowed
out of the mistresses sight.

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Come on. Kate. I'm leaving.

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So I don't care what she says,
but I'm not leaving.

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And I don't think I want to.

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Mrs. Bates in is strict,
but she means well.

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Not many mistresses
would take the care.

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She does.

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And it doesn't benefit her.

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Doesn't it?

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You think that
because you don't know better.

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You little fool.

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Of course it benefits her
to have us always ready to work.

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She gets more work from us
than our wages are worth.

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I'll be happy to leave
this place on Wednesday.

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The conversation was between

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the senior and junior housemaids
at a large country estate.

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The older maid who held
the higher position

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was a smart and capable
young woman.

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But she was strong
willed, quick tempered

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and firm about her
rights and duties.

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She had only been employed
for three months

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and had already given notice
to leave, finding the house

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rules too strict, especially
those about the Sabbath.

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Mrs. Bates Anne
was indeed strict in this area,

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but if Fanny Ellis
had thought about it reasonably,

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she would have realized

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that the children and servants
followed the same rules.

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Everyone who was healthy
and not needed at home for work

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was expected to be in church
at least once on Sunday.

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Since there was only one nearby
church, masters and servants

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all sat under the same roof
close to each other,

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and Ellis was one of the first
to rebel against this rule,

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even though she had
agreed to it.

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When she became
the senior housemaid

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more than once,
she didn't show up for church.

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Making different
excuses for her absence.

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Then she openly stated
that servants

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had little enough time for rest
or fresh air,

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and as long as her work was done
well and on time,

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she intended to use her Sundays
as she pleased Mrs.

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Bates
and didn't want to let Fanny go,

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but she couldn't allow her
authority to be ignored.

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At first
she spoke kindly to Fanny,

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reminding her
that the Sabbath is God's day,

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given to refresh the soul
and rest the body

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and that going to church
should be seen as a blessing,

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not a burden
forced on us by others.

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I'll give you
the same opportunity

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I gave my own children.

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You can be sure
I want the best for them.

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And the fact that I'm strict

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with you two should show
I want what's good for you,

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not just for myself.

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Fanny
listened, but said nothing.

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And soon after,
she broke the rule again.

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If this happens a third
time, Fanny,

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I will have to give you
notice to leave.

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I cannot keep any servant
who disobeys our rules.

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I'll give you a month's notice
and save you the trouble.

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These rules don't suit me.

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They might work in a school
for children,

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but not for adults
in a free country.

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I'll do my work
well while I'm here.

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And I hope you'll give me
a good reference for that.

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I don't expect anyone will ask
you how often I went to church.

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Fanny, with a toss of her head
and without waiting

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for a response, stormed
out of her mistress's presence.

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Poor girl.

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I wish I could make her
understand

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how much I truly want
what's best for her.

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I just hope she doesn't

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influence the others.

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Especially Kate.

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But that's exactly
what Fanny intended to do.

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She shared her views
on tyrannical mistresses

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and slavery in service
at every opportunity.

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But most of her fellow servants
valued their jobs

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too much to agree
or be swayed by her words.

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Kate Evans,
however, was younger, weaker

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and more easily influenced.

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She was also a bit
frivolous, had a pretty face

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and enjoyed showing it off
outside the servant's

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pew at church, where,
if you so much as look up,

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the mistress's eye is on you
immediately.

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Fanny was wrong, Mrs.

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Bates,
and went to church to worship,

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not to keep an eye on others.

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She was aware the younger ones
might feel uneasy,

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so she took care to avoid
making them feel watched.

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After Fanny gave notice,
she only went to church once

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more.

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On the second Sunday,
she convinced Kate to join her.

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The weaker gave into both
Fanny's persuasion and teasing.

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But she wasn't happy.

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She feared the consequences

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of her disobedience
and felt angry at herself

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for giving in to ridicule
when she knew it was wrong.

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Kate couldn't forget that Mrs.

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Beatson had taken her
from a poor home and a widowed

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mother struggling
to provide for younger children.

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When she first came three years
ago, she was very uneducated

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and her mistress had patiently
taught her everything she knew.

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Mrs. Bates, and had been kind,

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overlooking her mistakes
and forgetfulness, and paid

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her more than she deserved
to ease her mother's worries.

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She even helped her learn
how to manage her money wisely,

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and allowed
her maid to teach Kate

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how to make her clothes
and save materials.

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The Kate
Evans of today was nothing like

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the untidy, ignorant girl
from three years ago.

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There was no question
she earned her wages.

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But who had made her so?

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To whom did she owe this
improvement?

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Kate's
conscience answered to Mrs.

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Bates, and she couldn't
forget that Mrs.

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Bates, and had been both
her friend and her employer,

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and that disobeying
or disrespecting her

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would be an act of deep
ingratitude.

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Yet she allowed herself to be

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laughed
and teased into doing both.

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The first time
this happened, Mrs.

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Bates and spoke to Kate
with more sorrow than anger.

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She understood that Kate
was young and easily influenced,

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just as she had
been led in the right direction.

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She could be just as easily
led astray.

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Under Fanny's influence,

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she would be a soft
and moldable as wax.

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You know, Kate,

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how much your mother worries

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about you
staying away from bad company

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and becoming a true
child of God.

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I've been hopeful for you
and pleased with your progress.

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And I don't want to be harsh
with you.

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I forgive
this act of disobedience

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because you were misled.

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But remember,
I can't let this happen again

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without consequences.

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And if you break the rules
once more, I'll have to give you

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notice to leave.

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Kate cried, promise
she wouldn't disobey again,

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and felt even more resolved
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Because Mrs.

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Bates and hadn't brought up past
favors, it was all for Kate's

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own good, and her mother's
and her conscience agreed

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with everything
her mistress had said.

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Chapter two Evil Communications.

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Kate fully intended to keep her

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promise, and would have done
so if only Fanny

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had not been around.

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She truly regretted
upsetting Mrs.

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Bates, in whose kindness
couldn't be forgotten,

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and she tried to make up for her
disrespect and disobedience

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by working harder and being more
attentive to her duties.

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Mrs. Bates
and looked for Kate in

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the servant's
pew on the next Sunday,

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and was pleased
to see her in her place,

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seemingly worshiping
with heart and voice.

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She was glad to see this,

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though she was a lady of high
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She had the heart of a mother.

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The struggles of young people
tempted by the world

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weighed on her, and she watched
over the daughters of poorer

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mothers with genuine care,
rejoicing in their successes

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both as a Christian
and a parent.

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After church,
she gave Kate a kind smile

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and a word of encouragement,

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which made the girl feel
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mistake and more eager
to make things right.

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But her struggle
was far from over,

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and her victory
not so easily won.

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Throughout the following week,
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taunted Kate whenever she could,
determined to pay Mrs.

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Bates and back by unsettling
the younger housemaid.

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Poor little girl.

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So you've eaten humble pie,
begged Mrs.

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Pardon, and promised to never be
naughty again.

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You like being bossed around,
doing whatever you're told,

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whether you're in the house
or out of it.

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It wasn't

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right for me to go with you
instead of going to church.

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There's no shame in admitting
you were wrong

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if your conscience tells you so.

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Oh, of course, but I suppose
it's perfectly fine for Mrs.

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Bates to treat us
grown women like children.

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I'm 25.

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Well, I'm not, though you are 20
and a grown up woman, and

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you are worth 3 pounds a year
more than what she gives you.

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I wouldn't know about that.

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I never looked for another job.

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And I don't want to leave Mrs.

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Bates, and has been
very kind to me unto herself.

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She gets three times

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the work from you
for every penny she pays.

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No. You're wrong.

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My wages may not be high,
but Mrs.

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Bates and paid me more than
I deserved when I first started.

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Then you owe her nothing.

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Because she's just taking it

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back out of what
you should be getting now.

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Fanny was quick with her
comebacks

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and bold in her attacks,
often leaving Kate silent,

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though she never convinced her
that she was right.

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Kate often wished
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but that wasn't possible
and she counted the days

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until Fanny would leave, glad
that the month was almost over.

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Mrs. Bates and had no idea
what was happening.

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Fanny worked harder than ever
with a double purpose.

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She wanted to make sure
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had no reason to complain,
and that she would receive

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an excellent reference
for her efficiency.

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Something most employers
cared about above all else.

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And I'll make sure she knows
I'm worth keeping more than some

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of her quiet types.

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But I won't be forced to spend
my Sundays the way she wants.

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No matter how nice the job is.

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Kate wouldn't and couldn't tell
anyone what she had to endure.

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So since she and Fanny worked
closely together,

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she had no choice but to listen.

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Slowly, Fanny's words
started to leave a mark.

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You knew the rules
when you came,

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so you should follow them.

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Well, I'm leaving because
they're too strict for me.

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You'll say the same soon enough.

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Fanny was right.

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Before the month was over,

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Kate began to feel
that it was unfair to hold grown

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people to such strict rules
in her heart.

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She began to rebel and wish
the rules would change.

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It was the last Sunday,

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and Fanny was set to leave
on Wednesday morning.

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She was in high spirits, having
found a promising new position

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and fully intended

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to show off her independence
to the very end.

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Small disagreement had occurred
between Kate and the cook,

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an older and trusted servant
who'd been a true friend to her.

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Sensing
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the cook warned Kate
against following bad advice.

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You've had a good home
and a kind mistress, Kate.

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Don't throw that away.

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Remember what you were like
when you first came here

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with barely a shoe on your foot.

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Or a proper dress to wear?

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Don't be ungrateful.

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I had good shoes and gowns, too.

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Well, yes, you did,
but it was the mistress

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who bought
most of your decent clothes.

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And I know that for sure.

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I paid her back
out of my wages for the clothes.

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So you don't need
to throw that in my face.

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Cook had meant well

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trying
to speak at the right time,

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and she genuinely cared
about Kate.

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Unfortunately,

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she said the wrong thing
and did more harm than good.

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She lacked her mistress's

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wisdom and patience
in dealing with the young.

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She threw my poverty in my face
and I didn't like it.

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I'd be surprised if you did.

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If I were you,
I wouldn't stay anywhere where

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either the mistress or another
servant could do that to me.

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Instead of renewing Kate's
gratitude,

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cook had stirred up her temper
by reminding her of past favors.

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Fanny, seeing the fire kindled,
made sure it didn't

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die out, and kept
saying more irritating things.

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She was so successful
that Kate went to bed that night

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feeling rebellious
and discontented.

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Kate shed bitter tears, upset
at being reminded of her poverty

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when she first arrived and she
felt humiliated and disgraced.

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I'd like to
get away from them all.

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I don't want to stay
where I might be spoken to.

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Like cooked at last night.

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Fanny's last Sunday morning
found Kate in no better mood.

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And she was more than ready
to give in to temptation again.

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Though she pretended to refuse
at first, Mrs.

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Batson is strict.

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But it's for our own good,
not for her benefit.

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In the end, Kate
gave in to Fanny's suggestion

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and spent Sunday morning
without going to church.

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Mrs. Beatson didn't say
anything to Kate until Monday,

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but the sorrowful
look on her mistress's kind face

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spoke louder to Kate's heart
than words could have.

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He had felt defiant
when she returned from her

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walk with Fanny.

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But as the quiet hours passed,
she began to realize

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the situation
she had placed herself in.

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She had the night

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to sleep on it,
but sleep was hard to come by.

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Hour after hour she lay awake
thinking about her mistress's

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kindness, the good home
she'd had, the regular routine,

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the plentiful food,
and the peaceful Sabbaths.

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She couldn't stop thinking

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about it and knew her current
health and strength were due

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to all these blessings.

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She also remembered her
severe illness

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in her second year of service.

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She had been nursed with care,
treated by the family doctor

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at her master's expense,
and given little treats

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to tempt her appetite
when she could finally eat.

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She knew that most servants
who fall ill are sent away

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to recover on their own,
possibly to a poor home.

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Kate had cried out of pride and
hurt feelings the night before,

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but now she wept more bitterly,
thinking of her ingratitude

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and how much pain
it would cause her mother.

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What a poor spirited thing
you are.

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You've been crying
half the night.

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And for what?

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I'll lose my place.

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And I know
I deserve to be sent away.

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I made a promise
and I've broken it.

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00:13:43,956 --> 00:13:45,357
It's not easy to think about.

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Especially with all my mistress
has done for me and my mother.

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00:13:49,261 --> 00:13:51,263
Well, you're a fool.

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00:13:51,263 --> 00:13:53,999
You're always changing sides
like a weathercock.

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00:13:53,999 --> 00:13:56,135
I never know where you stand.

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If you do lose your place,

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there are plenty of better ones
out there.

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00:14:00,039 --> 00:14:03,509
Staying here for three years
is reference enough for anyone.

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00:14:03,509 --> 00:14:06,078
Just give notice yourself
like I did.

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I'm Mrs.

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00:14:06,612 --> 00:14:09,582
Bates, and we'll see how little
you care about the job.

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00:14:09,582 --> 00:14:12,084
You don't have
to tell your mother right away.

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00:14:12,084 --> 00:14:15,054
Wait until you've got
another place lined up.

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00:14:15,054 --> 00:14:18,257
But Kate felt she'd already
taken Fanny's advice one time.

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00:14:18,257 --> 00:14:19,291
Too many.

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00:14:19,291 --> 00:14:21,994
There was no way she would go
that far.

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00:14:21,994 --> 00:14:24,463
Her suspense didn't last long.

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00:14:24,463 --> 00:14:26,732
Right after breakfast,
she was called to her

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mistress's room.

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00:14:28,434 --> 00:14:29,668
You know why I've sent for you.

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00:14:29,668 --> 00:14:30,369
Kate.

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00:14:30,369 --> 00:14:31,737
I've never gone back on my word

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when I've promised you
something.

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00:14:33,005 --> 00:14:35,040
And I can't do so now.

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00:14:35,040 --> 00:14:37,243
I don't need to explain why
I'm letting you go.

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00:14:37,243 --> 00:14:39,879
You already know
without me saying anything.

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00:14:39,879 --> 00:14:41,413
You'll have to leave
in one month.

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00:14:41,413 --> 00:14:44,049
And you must understand that
no mistress can keep a girl

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00:14:44,049 --> 00:14:48,120
who repeatedly disobeys orders
and breaks the household rules.

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00:14:48,120 --> 00:14:50,289
Kate had expected this,

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00:14:50,289 --> 00:14:53,626
and she deeply regretted
the behavior that led to it.

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00:14:53,626 --> 00:14:55,861
She didn't dare
look up at her kind mistress

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00:14:55,861 --> 00:14:58,397
and couldn't
say a word in her defense.

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00:14:58,397 --> 00:15:01,000
She stood there, eyes downcast,

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00:15:01,000 --> 00:15:03,469
with tears already welling up.

351
00:15:03,469 --> 00:15:05,070
What could she say?

352
00:15:05,070 --> 00:15:08,274
Only confess
her ingratitude and foolishness,

353
00:15:08,274 --> 00:15:10,743
and admit that she had followed
bad advice

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00:15:10,743 --> 00:15:13,379
and acted
against her better judgment.

355
00:15:13,379 --> 00:15:16,248
She would have gladly said this
if she had the slightest hope

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00:15:16,248 --> 00:15:19,018
of being forgiven.
But she didn't.

357
00:15:19,018 --> 00:15:22,321
And after waiting in silence
for a few moments, Mrs.

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00:15:22,321 --> 00:15:25,291
Bates and said,
you can leave the room, Kate.

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00:15:25,291 --> 00:15:27,693
I have nothing more to say
to you at the moment.

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00:15:27,693 --> 00:15:29,862
Kate turned away
to hide the tears

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00:15:29,862 --> 00:15:31,797
now streaming down her face,

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00:15:31,797 --> 00:15:35,234
and left her mistress's presence
without a word.

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00:15:35,234 --> 00:15:39,204
If she had only looked up and
seen the pity and sorrow in Mrs.

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00:15:39,204 --> 00:15:42,474
Bates, Anne's kind face,
she might have tried to speak

365
00:15:42,474 --> 00:15:45,144
what was in her heart,
but she didn't.

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00:15:45,144 --> 00:15:47,880
And as she walked slowly away,
she left Mrs.

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00:15:47,880 --> 00:15:50,683
Bates, and, thinking the girl
she had done so much for

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00:15:50,683 --> 00:15:54,853
was both ungrateful
and willfully disobedient.

369
00:15:54,853 --> 00:15:57,122
Fanny was not far off

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00:15:57,122 --> 00:15:59,758
throughout that day,
and the next

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00:15:59,758 --> 00:16:02,661
she tried in her own way
to cheer Kate by repeating

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00:16:02,661 --> 00:16:04,063
all her old arguments

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00:16:04,063 --> 00:16:07,099
about not being controlled
and treated like children.

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00:16:07,099 --> 00:16:09,868
But her words
brought no comfort,

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00:16:09,868 --> 00:16:12,137
while Kate couldn't help
but hear them.

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00:16:12,137 --> 00:16:14,873
Her mind was on the past
three years of comfort,

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00:16:14,873 --> 00:16:17,476
plenty and peace in that home

378
00:16:17,476 --> 00:16:19,044
and the kindness
she had received

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00:16:19,044 --> 00:16:22,381
there, saying to herself,
if I hadn't listened to you,

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00:16:22,381 --> 00:16:25,918
I might still be looking forward
to more happy years here.

381
00:16:25,918 --> 00:16:29,755
Now I must leave and they'll
think I've acted so badly.

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00:16:29,755 --> 00:16:32,825
Fanny left in high
spirits on Wednesday morning,

383
00:16:32,825 --> 00:16:35,461
and despite the harm
her influence had done,

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00:16:35,461 --> 00:16:38,664
Kate felt even more unhappy
when she was gone.

385
00:16:38,664 --> 00:16:42,001
She had offended the cook,
her old friend, by resenting her

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00:16:42,001 --> 00:16:45,571
well-meaning advice,
and now they barely spoke.

387
00:16:45,571 --> 00:16:48,240
Kate can go her own way
for all I care.

388
00:16:48,240 --> 00:16:50,809
She's just a girl of 20
and I'm twice her age.

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00:16:50,809 --> 00:16:52,778
Old enough to be her mother.

390
00:16:52,778 --> 00:16:55,647
I've tried to act like one
to her, helped her in many ways

391
00:16:55,647 --> 00:16:58,117
because I thought
she wanted to do right.

392
00:16:58,117 --> 00:17:00,386
But now she's gone
against the mistress's orders

393
00:17:00,386 --> 00:17:03,088
and got upset with me
just for reminding her of what's

394
00:17:03,088 --> 00:17:07,026
been done for her
and giving us some good advice.

395
00:17:07,026 --> 00:17:09,061
Well, she can go her own way.

396
00:17:09,061 --> 00:17:10,396
I won't interfere any more.

397
00:17:10,396 --> 00:17:12,498
No matter what happens.

398
00:17:12,498 --> 00:17:14,733
I'll be polite and speak
when it's about the house.

399
00:17:14,733 --> 00:17:15,834
But that's all.

400
00:17:15,834 --> 00:17:18,570
If Kate wants to make up,
it's up to her, not me.

401
00:17:18,570 --> 00:17:21,874
I won't swallow my pride because
I only tried to help her.

402
00:17:21,874 --> 00:17:24,243
The ungrateful thing.

403
00:17:24,243 --> 00:17:26,311
Fanny's parting words were.

404
00:17:26,311 --> 00:17:27,312
Cheer up, Kate.

405
00:17:27,312 --> 00:17:29,515
Don't go around
looking so miserable.

406
00:17:29,515 --> 00:17:31,450
I'll find you a better place
soon.

407
00:17:31,450 --> 00:17:34,420
And better wages
too. Don't worry.

408
00:17:34,420 --> 00:17:37,923
Even this promise didn't lift
the burden from Kate's mind.

409
00:17:37,923 --> 00:17:40,893
Fortunately,
her conscience wasn't silenced.

410
00:17:40,893 --> 00:17:44,997
It made itself heard and left
her feeling very unhappy.

411
00:17:44,997 --> 00:17:47,699
She would have gladly done
anything to show her regret

412
00:17:47,699 --> 00:17:50,069
and her words of forgiveness
from Mrs. Bates.

413
00:17:50,069 --> 00:17:52,771
And even though she didn't
expect her notice

414
00:17:52,771 --> 00:17:54,273
to be withdrawn,

415
00:17:54,273 --> 00:17:57,576
she wanted to talk to the cook,
but got no encouragement.

416
00:17:57,576 --> 00:17:59,878
The older servant
stuck to her decision,

417
00:17:59,878 --> 00:18:03,715
answering yes or no
when asked a question.

418
00:18:03,715 --> 00:18:07,352
Speaking only when necessary
and saying as little as possible

419
00:18:07,352 --> 00:18:10,556
before closing her lips
and keeping to herself.

420
00:18:10,556 --> 00:18:13,725
Seeing she was avoided,
and that her fellow servants

421
00:18:13,725 --> 00:18:17,162
also disapproved of her behavior
toward their mistress.

422
00:18:17,162 --> 00:18:20,065
Kate spent as little time
as possible with them

423
00:18:20,065 --> 00:18:21,967
and retreated to her own room,

424
00:18:21,967 --> 00:18:24,103
where she regretted in solitude
the mistake

425
00:18:24,103 --> 00:18:26,538
she would have been more
than willing to confess.

426
00:18:26,538 --> 00:18:30,509
If only she could
regain her mistress's favor.

427
00:18:30,509 --> 00:18:34,012
Chapter three misunderstandings.

428
00:18:34,012 --> 00:18:37,082
Mrs. Bates initially
thought about informing

429
00:18:37,082 --> 00:18:40,652
Kate's mother that the girl
would be leaving her position.

430
00:18:40,652 --> 00:18:42,221
But after some reflection,

431
00:18:42,221 --> 00:18:44,456
she decided to wait
and see how Kate

432
00:18:44,456 --> 00:18:46,592
conducted herself
in the meantime,

433
00:18:46,592 --> 00:18:49,128
giving her a chance
to ask for forgiveness.

434
00:18:49,128 --> 00:18:52,331
Mrs. Bates and naturally felt
that Kate should apologize

435
00:18:52,331 --> 00:18:52,898
and would do

436
00:18:52,898 --> 00:18:56,635
so if she realized her mistake
and wanted to keep her job.

437
00:18:56,635 --> 00:19:00,439
She believed Kate's actions were
due to Fanny's bad influence,

438
00:19:00,439 --> 00:19:03,475
and regretted that Kate
had been exposed to it.

439
00:19:03,475 --> 00:19:05,210
Now that Fanny was gone.

440
00:19:05,210 --> 00:19:08,447
If Kate was truly sorry,
there was nothing stopping her

441
00:19:08,447 --> 00:19:09,748
from expressing it.

442
00:19:09,748 --> 00:19:10,983
But there was something Mrs.

443
00:19:10,983 --> 00:19:12,284
Bates in, and the cook didn't

444
00:19:12,284 --> 00:19:15,053
quite understand,
and the same nature that made

445
00:19:15,053 --> 00:19:19,124
Kate easily influenced
also made her fearful and timid,

446
00:19:19,124 --> 00:19:22,194
especially when it came
to facing rejection.

447
00:19:22,194 --> 00:19:25,464
She was easily led,
but also easily frightened.

448
00:19:25,464 --> 00:19:28,333
The one thought that weighed on
her mind was

449
00:19:28,333 --> 00:19:29,801
everyone is against me.

450
00:19:29,801 --> 00:19:33,572
I know I've done wrong, but
they don't have to be so harsh.

451
00:19:33,572 --> 00:19:36,441
Cook avoids talking to me
and I'm sure the others will do

452
00:19:36,441 --> 00:19:38,010
the same.

453
00:19:38,010 --> 00:19:39,611
Fanny, who got me into this,

454
00:19:39,611 --> 00:19:42,414
is gone and left me
to deal with it alone.

455
00:19:42,414 --> 00:19:44,716
If only my mistress
would give me a kind word.

456
00:19:44,716 --> 00:19:46,818
Or look, I could speak.

457
00:19:46,818 --> 00:19:48,153
But I'm too scared.

458
00:19:48,153 --> 00:19:49,755
It's a pity
that people are often

459
00:19:49,755 --> 00:19:52,858
bold enough to make a mistake,
but too afraid to admit it.

460
00:19:52,858 --> 00:19:55,561
It's also unfortunate
that elders don't always

461
00:19:55,561 --> 00:19:58,664
remember how easy it is for them
to speak words

462
00:19:58,664 --> 00:20:02,501
that the young find hard to say,
not out of unwillingness,

463
00:20:02,501 --> 00:20:05,370
but fear of how those words
will be received.

464
00:20:05,370 --> 00:20:08,941
Kate threw herself into her work
with greater diligence,

465
00:20:08,941 --> 00:20:10,475
leaving nothing undone

466
00:20:10,475 --> 00:20:13,312
and doing everything
as perfectly as possible.

467
00:20:13,312 --> 00:20:14,613
She hoped this would show her

468
00:20:14,613 --> 00:20:18,150
mistress that she was sorry
and wanted her to know it.

469
00:20:18,150 --> 00:20:19,017
But whenever Mrs.

470
00:20:19,017 --> 00:20:22,321
Bates and was near, Kate
seemed to shrink into herself,

471
00:20:22,321 --> 00:20:25,924
unable to express the feelings
that filled her heart.

472
00:20:25,924 --> 00:20:29,294
Mrs. Bates and noticed Kate's
careful work, but also her

473
00:20:29,294 --> 00:20:33,932
silence and averted gaze,
and she misunderstood both.

474
00:20:33,932 --> 00:20:35,834
She thought to herself.

475
00:20:35,834 --> 00:20:39,037
Kate is determined to earn
a good reference for her work,

476
00:20:39,037 --> 00:20:41,573
but she's too proud
to ask for forgiveness.

477
00:20:41,573 --> 00:20:44,276
I'm starting to doubt
if she even wants to stay.

478
00:20:44,276 --> 00:20:47,980
She seems so sullen and avoids
me as much as possible.

479
00:20:47,980 --> 00:20:51,750
Mrs. Bates and then spoke
to the cook about the situation.

480
00:20:51,750 --> 00:20:54,152
Do you think Kate is sorry
about having to leave?

481
00:20:54,152 --> 00:20:56,054
Honestly, ma'am, I can't tell.

482
00:20:56,054 --> 00:20:59,224
When I spoke to her before
that troublesome Fanny left

483
00:20:59,224 --> 00:21:02,060
and reminded her
of how much you'd done for her.

484
00:21:02,060 --> 00:21:04,997
How you took her in
with barely a gown to her back,

485
00:21:04,997 --> 00:21:08,200
clothed her, and taught her
to be what she is.

486
00:21:08,200 --> 00:21:10,135
She flew at me in anger.

487
00:21:10,135 --> 00:21:12,170
That's
how these young girls are.

488
00:21:12,170 --> 00:21:15,240
You lift them out of a poor
place where they've had nothing.

489
00:21:15,240 --> 00:21:17,276
Bring them
into a home like this,

490
00:21:17,276 --> 00:21:21,513
and they don't know how to
appreciate it or be grateful.

491
00:21:21,513 --> 00:21:23,482
I never
thought Kate was ungrateful.

492
00:21:23,482 --> 00:21:23,949
I've wondered

493
00:21:23,949 --> 00:21:25,717
if she's just afraid
to speak to me,

494
00:21:25,717 --> 00:21:28,987
or if she's stubborn and refuses
to admit she was wrong.

495
00:21:28,987 --> 00:21:32,991
I feel sad for her, both for her
own sake and her mother's.

496
00:21:32,991 --> 00:21:35,327
I agree, ma'am,
it's disappointing.

497
00:21:35,327 --> 00:21:37,829
I'm much older than her
and I've tried to help her,

498
00:21:37,829 --> 00:21:39,064
but when she turned on me,

499
00:21:39,064 --> 00:21:43,135
I decided I wouldn't interfere
unless she came to me first.

500
00:21:43,135 --> 00:21:44,770
I'm polite to Kate.

501
00:21:44,770 --> 00:21:45,170
I don't

502
00:21:45,170 --> 00:21:48,807
give her any harsh words, but
I only talk to her about work.

503
00:21:48,807 --> 00:21:50,976
I think she's just
set in her ways now.

504
00:21:50,976 --> 00:21:53,845
She keeps to herself and avoids
everyone.

505
00:21:53,845 --> 00:21:55,347
She's doing her work
better than ever.

506
00:21:55,347 --> 00:21:56,982
I think.

507
00:21:56,982 --> 00:21:57,549
Yes, ma'am.

508
00:21:57,549 --> 00:22:00,152
And thanks to you,
she knows how to do it right.

509
00:22:00,152 --> 00:22:01,953
Fanny told her that
with three years

510
00:22:01,953 --> 00:22:03,989
experience here,
she can get a good job

511
00:22:03,989 --> 00:22:07,659
anywhere without people caring
how she spends her Sundays.

512
00:22:07,659 --> 00:22:09,928
Mrs. Bates
and was saddened to find her own

513
00:22:09,928 --> 00:22:13,231
impressions of Kate confirmed
by her trusted servant.

514
00:22:13,231 --> 00:22:16,501
She concluded that Kate
was being sullen and too proud

515
00:22:16,501 --> 00:22:19,371
to admit her mistake,
while in reality

516
00:22:19,371 --> 00:22:21,973
Kate was longing for a chance
to speak,

517
00:22:21,973 --> 00:22:24,776
but feared that her words
would make no difference.

518
00:22:24,776 --> 00:22:27,579
This situation
dragged on for two weeks

519
00:22:27,579 --> 00:22:31,450
until Kate received a second
letter from Fanny Ellis.

520
00:22:31,450 --> 00:22:34,786
Fanny had written soon
after leaving to let Kate know

521
00:22:34,786 --> 00:22:36,321
she was looking out for her,

522
00:22:36,321 --> 00:22:38,690
saying there were plenty of jobs
available,

523
00:22:38,690 --> 00:22:42,894
but she wanted to find her a
really good one near to herself.

524
00:22:42,894 --> 00:22:45,664
By this time, Kate was doubtful
whether Fanny's

525
00:22:45,664 --> 00:22:48,967
idea of a real good place
would match her own,

526
00:22:48,967 --> 00:22:53,171
and whether being near Fanny
would be a help or a hindrance.

527
00:22:53,171 --> 00:22:55,807
As the days passed,
without any acknowledgment

528
00:22:55,807 --> 00:23:00,679
of her hard work, without a kind
look or word of encouragement,

529
00:23:00,679 --> 00:23:05,083
Kate first fell into despair
and then grew indignant.

530
00:23:05,083 --> 00:23:07,185
She cried bitterly
in the solitude

531
00:23:07,185 --> 00:23:09,955
of her little room,
telling herself, Mrs.

532
00:23:09,955 --> 00:23:12,023
Bates, and could give me
another chance.

533
00:23:12,023 --> 00:23:13,425
She must see that I'm sorry,

534
00:23:13,425 --> 00:23:16,161
because I'm doing
everything I can to please her.

535
00:23:16,161 --> 00:23:18,597
And if I were a lady
and mistress of a big house,

536
00:23:18,597 --> 00:23:21,066
I wouldn't
be so hard on a young girl.

537
00:23:21,066 --> 00:23:22,834
She probably won't
ask me to stay.

538
00:23:22,834 --> 00:23:25,470
But she doesn't have to be
so cold and distant.

539
00:23:25,470 --> 00:23:28,006
She just walks
past me as if I'm invisible.

540
00:23:28,006 --> 00:23:31,343
Soon, angry thoughts
began to take over and Kate

541
00:23:31,343 --> 00:23:33,378
found herself thinking,

542
00:23:33,378 --> 00:23:35,747
I don't care about staying here
anymore.

543
00:23:35,747 --> 00:23:37,749
I'd just be miserable with cook,

544
00:23:37,749 --> 00:23:41,453
who used to be so kind
but has now turned against me.

545
00:23:41,453 --> 00:23:44,556
Everyone has all over one
small mistake.

546
00:23:44,556 --> 00:23:46,191
It's not fair.

547
00:23:46,191 --> 00:23:48,193
I know mother will be upset
that I'm leaving,

548
00:23:48,193 --> 00:23:49,561
but she'll have to get over it.

549
00:23:49,561 --> 00:23:51,663
Mrs. Bates
and hasn't written to her yet.

550
00:23:51,663 --> 00:23:52,597
And I won't either.

551
00:23:52,597 --> 00:23:55,100
Not until I have a new place
lined up.

552
00:23:55,100 --> 00:23:59,271
Just when Kate reached this
point, the certainty arrived.

553
00:23:59,271 --> 00:24:01,773
Fanny wrote,
I found you a great place

554
00:24:01,773 --> 00:24:04,643
with 3 pounds a year
more than you're getting now.

555
00:24:04,643 --> 00:24:06,077
It's almost settled.

556
00:24:06,077 --> 00:24:08,947
Mrs. May Brook is writing
for your reference today.

557
00:24:08,947 --> 00:24:09,748
Mrs. Bates in

558
00:24:09,748 --> 00:24:11,483
can't help
giving you a good one,

559
00:24:11,483 --> 00:24:13,885
because your work
has been excellent.

560
00:24:13,885 --> 00:24:14,653
Mrs. May Brooke

561
00:24:14,653 --> 00:24:18,290
said it's just a formality to
ask for your reference, because

562
00:24:18,290 --> 00:24:21,960
three years at your current
place is enough for anyone.

563
00:24:21,960 --> 00:24:24,896
I told you it would be Kate.

564
00:24:24,896 --> 00:24:26,431
Taught by experience.

565
00:24:26,431 --> 00:24:28,233
Written by Ruth Lamb.

566
00:24:28,233 --> 00:24:33,004
Audiobook
produced by scroll Reddit.com.

567
00:24:33,004 --> 00:24:36,541
Chapter one Leading strings.

568
00:24:36,541 --> 00:24:40,345
We might be servants,
but we are not slaves.

569
00:24:40,345 --> 00:24:42,848
I wouldn't stay
in the best place in the world

570
00:24:42,848 --> 00:24:45,150
if I had to be treated
like a child.

571
00:24:45,150 --> 00:24:48,086
Never allowed
out of the mistresses sight.

572
00:24:48,086 --> 00:24:49,020
Come on. Kate.

573
00:24:49,020 --> 00:24:52,424
I'm leaving,
so I don't care what she says,

574
00:24:52,424 --> 00:24:55,427
but I'm not leaving,
and I don't think I want to.

575
00:24:55,427 --> 00:24:58,797
Mrs. Bates in is strict,
but she means well.

576
00:24:58,797 --> 00:25:01,399
Not many mistresses
would take the care she does.

577
00:25:01,399 --> 00:25:04,269
And it doesn't benefit
her, doesn't it?

578
00:25:04,269 --> 00:25:06,304
You think that
because you don't know better.

579
00:25:06,304 --> 00:25:07,772
You little fool.

580
00:25:07,772 --> 00:25:11,943
Of course it benefits her
to have us always ready to work.

581
00:25:11,943 --> 00:25:15,380
She gets more work from us
than our wages are worth.

582
00:25:15,380 --> 00:25:19,150
I'll be happy to leave
this place on Wednesday.

583
00:25:19,150 --> 00:25:20,652
The conversation was between

584
00:25:20,652 --> 00:25:24,523
the senior and junior housemaids
at a large country estate.

585
00:25:24,523 --> 00:25:28,093
The older maid who held
the higher position was a smart

586
00:25:28,093 --> 00:25:31,796
and capable young woman,
but she was strong willed, quick

587
00:25:31,796 --> 00:25:35,300
tempered and firm about her
rights and duties.

588
00:25:35,300 --> 00:25:38,036
She had only been employed
for three months

589
00:25:38,036 --> 00:25:41,072
and had already given notice
to leave, finding the house

590
00:25:41,072 --> 00:25:44,876
rules too strict, especially
those about the Sabbath.

591
00:25:44,876 --> 00:25:47,679
Mrs. Bates
was indeed strict in this area,

592
00:25:47,679 --> 00:25:50,582
but if Fanny Ellis
had thought about it reasonably,

593
00:25:50,582 --> 00:25:51,550
she would have realized

594
00:25:51,550 --> 00:25:54,452
that the children and servants
followed the same rules.

595
00:25:54,452 --> 00:25:57,689
Everyone who was healthy
and not needed at home for work

596
00:25:57,689 --> 00:26:01,092
was expected to be in church
at least once on Sunday.

597
00:26:01,092 --> 00:26:05,096
Since there was only one nearby
church, masters and servants

598
00:26:05,096 --> 00:26:08,500
all sat under the same roof
close to each other,

599
00:26:08,500 --> 00:26:09,301
and the Ellis was

600
00:26:09,301 --> 00:26:11,736
one of the first
to rebel against this rule,

601
00:26:11,736 --> 00:26:13,204
even though she had
agreed to it.

602
00:26:13,204 --> 00:26:15,540
When she became
the senior housemaid

603
00:26:15,540 --> 00:26:18,109
more than once,
she didn't show up for church,

604
00:26:18,109 --> 00:26:20,912
making different
excuses for her absence.

605
00:26:20,912 --> 00:26:23,281
Then she openly stated
that servants

606
00:26:23,281 --> 00:26:26,084
had little enough time for rest
or fresh air,

607
00:26:26,084 --> 00:26:29,154
and as long as her work was done
well and on time,

608
00:26:29,154 --> 00:26:32,557
she intended to use her Sundays
as she pleased Mrs.

609
00:26:32,557 --> 00:26:34,893
Bates
and didn't want to let Fanny go,

610
00:26:34,893 --> 00:26:37,896
but she couldn't allow her
authority to be ignored.

611
00:26:37,896 --> 00:26:40,632
At first
she spoke kindly to Fanny,

612
00:26:40,632 --> 00:26:43,501
reminding her
that the Sabbath is God's day,

613
00:26:43,501 --> 00:26:46,304
given to refresh the soul
and rest the body,

614
00:26:46,304 --> 00:26:48,907
and that going to church
should be seen as a blessing,

615
00:26:48,907 --> 00:26:52,177
not a burden
forced on us by others.

616
00:26:52,177 --> 00:26:53,645
I'll give you
the same opportunity

617
00:26:53,645 --> 00:26:55,480
I gave my own children.

618
00:26:55,480 --> 00:26:57,248
You can be sure
I want the best for them.

619
00:26:57,248 --> 00:26:58,383
And the fact that I'm strict

620
00:26:58,383 --> 00:27:00,986
with you two should show
I want what's good for you,

621
00:27:00,986 --> 00:27:03,421
not just for myself.

622
00:27:03,421 --> 00:27:05,790
Fanny
listened, but said nothing.

623
00:27:05,790 --> 00:27:08,793
And soon after,
she broke the rule again.

624
00:27:08,793 --> 00:27:11,529
If this happens a third time,
Fanny, I will have to give you

625
00:27:11,529 --> 00:27:12,597
notice to leave.

626
00:27:12,597 --> 00:27:15,533
I cannot keep any servant
who disobeys our rules.

627
00:27:15,533 --> 00:27:18,837
I'll give you a month's notice
and save you the trouble.

628
00:27:18,837 --> 00:27:20,639
These rules don't suit me.

629
00:27:20,639 --> 00:27:22,974
They might work in a school
for children,

630
00:27:22,974 --> 00:27:25,777
but not for adults
in a free country.

631
00:27:25,777 --> 00:27:28,046
I'll do my work
well while I'm here,

632
00:27:28,046 --> 00:27:30,715
and I hope you'll give me
a good reference for that.

633
00:27:30,715 --> 00:27:35,120
I don't expect anyone will ask
you how often I went to church.

634
00:27:35,120 --> 00:27:38,189
Fanny, with a toss of her head
and without waiting

635
00:27:38,189 --> 00:27:41,860
for a response, stormed
out of her mistress's presence.

636
00:27:41,860 --> 00:27:42,961
Poor girl.

637
00:27:42,961 --> 00:27:44,396
I wish I could make her
understand

638
00:27:44,396 --> 00:27:47,098
how much I truly want
what's best for her.

639
00:27:47,098 --> 00:27:48,033
I just hope she doesn't

640
00:27:48,033 --> 00:27:49,200
influence the others.

641
00:27:49,200 --> 00:27:50,969
Especially Kate.

642
00:27:50,969 --> 00:27:53,905
But that's exactly
what Fanny intended to do.

643
00:27:53,905 --> 00:27:57,308
She shared her views
on tyrannical mistresses

644
00:27:57,308 --> 00:28:01,012
and slavery in service
at every opportunity.

645
00:28:01,012 --> 00:28:03,782
But most of her fellow servants
valued their jobs

646
00:28:03,782 --> 00:28:07,218
too much to agree
or be swayed by her words.

647
00:28:07,218 --> 00:28:10,755
Kate Evans,
however, was younger, weaker

648
00:28:10,755 --> 00:28:12,724
and more easily influenced.

649
00:28:12,724 --> 00:28:16,494
She was also a bit
frivolous, had a pretty face

650
00:28:16,494 --> 00:28:18,663
and enjoyed showing it off
outside the servants

651
00:28:18,663 --> 00:28:22,033
pew at church, where
if you so much as look up,

652
00:28:22,033 --> 00:28:25,370
the mistress's eye is on you
immediately.

653
00:28:25,370 --> 00:28:27,505
Fanny was wrong, Mrs.

654
00:28:27,505 --> 00:28:29,474
Bates,
and went to church to worship,

655
00:28:29,474 --> 00:28:31,476
not to keep an eye on others.

656
00:28:31,476 --> 00:28:34,412
She was aware the younger ones
might feel uneasy,

657
00:28:34,412 --> 00:28:37,415
so she took care to avoid
making them feel watched.

658
00:28:37,415 --> 00:28:40,485
After Fanny gave notice,
she only went to church once

659
00:28:40,485 --> 00:28:41,519
more.

660
00:28:41,519 --> 00:28:44,789
On the second Sunday,
she convinced Kate to join her.

661
00:28:44,789 --> 00:28:48,560
The white girl gave in to both
Fanny's persuasion and teasing,

662
00:28:48,560 --> 00:28:49,961
but she wasn't happy.

663
00:28:49,961 --> 00:28:52,731
She feared the consequences
of her disobedience

664
00:28:52,731 --> 00:28:55,500
and felt angry at herself
for giving in to ridicule.

665
00:28:55,500 --> 00:28:57,168
When she knew it was wrong.

666
00:28:57,168 --> 00:28:58,837
Kate couldn't forget that Mrs.

667
00:28:58,837 --> 00:29:02,107
Beatson had taken her
from a poor home and a widowed

668
00:29:02,107 --> 00:29:05,043
mother struggling
to provide for younger children.

669
00:29:05,043 --> 00:29:09,347
When she first came three years
ago, she was very uneducated

670
00:29:09,347 --> 00:29:12,751
and her mistress had patiently
taught her everything she knew.

671
00:29:12,751 --> 00:29:15,053
Mrs. Bates and had been kind.

672
00:29:15,053 --> 00:29:18,256
Overlook her mistakes
and forgetfulness, and paid

673
00:29:18,256 --> 00:29:21,493
her more than she deserved
to ease her mother's worries.

674
00:29:21,493 --> 00:29:25,096
She even helped her learn
how to manage her money wisely

675
00:29:25,096 --> 00:29:26,598
and allowed
her maid to teach Kate

676
00:29:26,598 --> 00:29:29,234
how to make her clothes
and save materials.

677
00:29:29,234 --> 00:29:31,803
The Kate
Evans of today was nothing like

678
00:29:31,803 --> 00:29:35,039
the untidy, ignorant girl
from three years ago.

679
00:29:35,039 --> 00:29:37,642
There was no question
she earned her wages.

680
00:29:37,642 --> 00:29:39,444
But who had made her so?

681
00:29:39,444 --> 00:29:42,280
To whom did she owe this
improvement?

682
00:29:42,280 --> 00:29:44,582
Kate's
conscience answered to Mrs.

683
00:29:44,582 --> 00:29:46,985
Bates and she couldn't
forget that Mrs.

684
00:29:46,985 --> 00:29:50,188
Bates, and had been both
her friend and her employer,

685
00:29:50,188 --> 00:29:52,457
and that disobeying
or disrespecting her

686
00:29:52,457 --> 00:29:55,126
would be an act of deep
ingratitude.

687
00:29:55,126 --> 00:29:56,628
Yet she allowed herself to be

688
00:29:56,628 --> 00:29:58,830
laughed
and teased into doing both.

689
00:29:58,830 --> 00:30:00,765
The first time
this happened, Mrs.

690
00:30:00,765 --> 00:30:03,735
Bates and spoke to Kate
with more sorrow than anger.

691
00:30:03,735 --> 00:30:06,871
She understood that Kate
was young and easily influenced,

692
00:30:06,871 --> 00:30:09,607
just as she had
been led in the right direction.

693
00:30:09,607 --> 00:30:12,410
She could be just as easily
led astray.

694
00:30:12,410 --> 00:30:13,878
Under Fanny's influence,

695
00:30:13,878 --> 00:30:16,714
she would be as soft
and moldable as wax.

696
00:30:16,714 --> 00:30:17,849
You know, Kate,

697
00:30:17,849 --> 00:30:19,017
how much your mother worries

698
00:30:19,017 --> 00:30:21,219
about you
staying away from bad company

699
00:30:21,219 --> 00:30:23,721
and becoming a true
child of God.

700
00:30:23,721 --> 00:30:27,058
I've been hopeful for you
and pleased with your progress.

701
00:30:27,058 --> 00:30:29,160
And I don't want to be harsh
with you.

702
00:30:29,160 --> 00:30:31,162
I forgive
this act of disobedience

703
00:30:31,162 --> 00:30:33,064
because you were misled.

704
00:30:33,064 --> 00:30:35,033
But remember,
I can't let this happen again

705
00:30:35,033 --> 00:30:36,167
without consequences.

706
00:30:36,167 --> 00:30:39,003
And if you break the rules
once more, I'll have to give you

707
00:30:39,003 --> 00:30:41,206
notice to leave.

708
00:30:41,206 --> 00:30:44,542
Kate cried, promise
she wouldn't disobey again,

709
00:30:44,542 --> 00:30:47,545
and felt even more resolved
to keep her word.

710
00:30:47,545 --> 00:30:48,179
Because Mrs.

711
00:30:48,179 --> 00:30:51,983
Bates and hadn't brought up past
favors, it was all for Kate's

712
00:30:51,983 --> 00:30:55,620
own good, and her mother's
and her conscience agreed

713
00:30:55,620 --> 00:31:00,658
with everything
her mistress had said.

714
00:31:00,658 --> 00:31:04,762
Chapter two Evil Communications.

715
00:31:04,762 --> 00:31:06,531
Kate fully intended to keep her

716
00:31:06,531 --> 00:31:09,033
promise, and would have done
so if only Fanny

717
00:31:09,033 --> 00:31:10,335
had not been around.

718
00:31:10,335 --> 00:31:12,470
She truly regretted
upsetting Mrs.

719
00:31:12,470 --> 00:31:15,273
Beatson, whose kindness
couldn't be forgotten,

720
00:31:15,273 --> 00:31:18,476
and she tried to make up for her
disrespect and disobedience

721
00:31:18,476 --> 00:31:22,013
by working harder and being more
attentive to her duties.

722
00:31:22,013 --> 00:31:23,748
Mrs. Bates
and looked for Kate in

723
00:31:23,748 --> 00:31:25,783
the servant's
pew on the next Sunday,

724
00:31:25,783 --> 00:31:28,052
and was pleased
to see her in her place,

725
00:31:28,052 --> 00:31:30,822
seemingly worshiping
with heart and voice.

726
00:31:30,822 --> 00:31:32,523
She was glad to see this,

727
00:31:32,523 --> 00:31:35,326
though she was a lady of high
standing and wealth.

728
00:31:35,326 --> 00:31:37,061
She had the heart of a mother.

729
00:31:37,061 --> 00:31:39,631
The struggles of young people
tempted by the world

730
00:31:39,631 --> 00:31:42,901
weighed on her, and she watched
over the daughters of poorer

731
00:31:42,901 --> 00:31:47,038
mothers with genuine care,
rejoicing in their successes

732
00:31:47,038 --> 00:31:49,440
both as a Christian
and a parent.

733
00:31:49,440 --> 00:31:52,410
After church,
she gave Kate a kind smile

734
00:31:52,410 --> 00:31:53,845
and a word of encouragement,

735
00:31:53,845 --> 00:31:56,414
which made the girl feel
even more sorry for her past

736
00:31:56,414 --> 00:31:59,350
mistake and more eager
to make things right.

737
00:31:59,350 --> 00:32:01,653
But her struggle
was far from over,

738
00:32:01,653 --> 00:32:04,122
and her victory
not so easily won.

739
00:32:04,122 --> 00:32:06,457
Throughout the following week,
Fanny Ellis

740
00:32:06,457 --> 00:32:09,761
taunted Kate whenever she could,
determined to pay Mrs.

741
00:32:09,761 --> 00:32:13,231
Bates and back by unsettling
the younger housemaid.

742
00:32:13,231 --> 00:32:14,966
Poor little girl.

743
00:32:14,966 --> 00:32:18,002
So you've eaten humble pie,
begged Mrs.

744
00:32:18,002 --> 00:32:21,940
Pardon, and promised to never be
naughty again.

745
00:32:21,940 --> 00:32:25,877
You like being bossed around,
doing whatever you're told,

746
00:32:25,877 --> 00:32:29,013
whether you're in the house
or out of it.

747
00:32:29,013 --> 00:32:29,514
It wasn't

748
00:32:29,514 --> 00:32:32,383
right for me to go with you
instead of going to church.

749
00:32:32,383 --> 00:32:34,552
There's no shame in admitting
you were wrong.

750
00:32:34,552 --> 00:32:36,854
If your conscience tells you so.

751
00:32:36,854 --> 00:32:39,757
Oh, of course, but I suppose
it's perfectly fine for Mrs.

752
00:32:39,757 --> 00:32:42,894
Beatson to treat us grown
women like children.

753
00:32:42,894 --> 00:32:44,595
I'm 25.

754
00:32:44,595 --> 00:32:48,099
Well, I'm not, though you are 20
and a grown up woman, and

755
00:32:48,099 --> 00:32:52,103
you are worth 3 pounds a year
more than what she gives you.

756
00:32:52,103 --> 00:32:53,905
I wouldn't know about that.

757
00:32:53,905 --> 00:32:57,542
I never looked for another job,
and I don't want to leave Mrs.

758
00:32:57,542 --> 00:33:01,479
Bates, and has been very kind
to me and to herself.

759
00:33:01,479 --> 00:33:02,680
She gets three times

760
00:33:02,680 --> 00:33:05,616
the work from you
for every penny she pays.

761
00:33:05,616 --> 00:33:07,251
No. You're wrong.

762
00:33:07,251 --> 00:33:09,420
My wages may not be high,
but Mrs.

763
00:33:09,420 --> 00:33:12,623
Bates and paid me more than
I deserved when I first started.

764
00:33:12,623 --> 00:33:15,393
Then you owe her nothing because
she's just taking it back

765
00:33:15,393 --> 00:33:17,729
out of what
you should be getting now.

766
00:33:17,729 --> 00:33:19,497
Fanny was quick with her
comebacks

767
00:33:19,497 --> 00:33:23,468
and bold in her attacks,
often leaving Kate silent,

768
00:33:23,468 --> 00:33:26,204
though she never convinced her
that she was right.

769
00:33:26,204 --> 00:33:28,873
Kate often wished
she could avoid Fanny,

770
00:33:28,873 --> 00:33:30,641
but that wasn't possible,

771
00:33:30,641 --> 00:33:33,544
and she counted the days
until Fanny would leave.

772
00:33:33,544 --> 00:33:36,147
Glad that
the month was almost over.

773
00:33:36,147 --> 00:33:39,217
Mrs. Bates, and had no idea
what was happening.

774
00:33:39,217 --> 00:33:42,520
Fanny worked harder than ever
with a double purpose.

775
00:33:42,520 --> 00:33:44,322
She wanted to make sure
her mistress

776
00:33:44,322 --> 00:33:47,291
had no reason to complain,
and that she would receive

777
00:33:47,291 --> 00:33:49,927
an excellent reference
for her efficiency,

778
00:33:49,927 --> 00:33:53,164
something most employers
cared about above all else.

779
00:33:53,164 --> 00:33:56,401
And I'll make sure she knows
I'm worth keeping more than some

780
00:33:56,401 --> 00:33:57,869
of her quiet types.

781
00:33:57,869 --> 00:34:01,205
But I won't be forced to spend
my Sundays the way she wants.

782
00:34:01,205 --> 00:34:03,307
No matter how nice the job is.

783
00:34:03,307 --> 00:34:06,978
Kate wouldn't and couldn't tell
anyone what she had to endure.

784
00:34:06,978 --> 00:34:09,647
So since she and Fanny worked
closely together,

785
00:34:09,647 --> 00:34:12,116
she had no choice but to listen.

786
00:34:12,116 --> 00:34:15,486
Slowly, Fanny's words
started to leave a mark.

787
00:34:15,486 --> 00:34:17,255
You knew the rules
when you came,

788
00:34:17,255 --> 00:34:18,689
so you should follow them.

789
00:34:18,689 --> 00:34:21,859
Well, I'm leaving because
they're too strict for me.

790
00:34:21,859 --> 00:34:23,995
You'll say the same soon enough.

791
00:34:23,995 --> 00:34:26,764
Fanny was right
before the month was over.

792
00:34:26,764 --> 00:34:29,634
Kate began to feel
that it was unfair to hold grown

793
00:34:29,634 --> 00:34:32,470
people to such strict rules
in her heart.

794
00:34:32,470 --> 00:34:35,673
She began to rebel and wished
the rules would change.

795
00:34:35,673 --> 00:34:37,041
It was the last Sunday,

796
00:34:37,041 --> 00:34:39,677
and Fanny was set to leave
on Wednesday morning.

797
00:34:39,677 --> 00:34:43,548
She was in high spirits, having
found a promising new position

798
00:34:43,548 --> 00:34:44,549
and fully intended

799
00:34:44,549 --> 00:34:47,552
to show off her independence
to the very end.

800
00:34:47,552 --> 00:34:51,255
Small disagreement had occurred
between Kate and the cook,

801
00:34:51,255 --> 00:34:55,293
an older and trusted servant
who'd been a true friend to her.

802
00:34:55,293 --> 00:34:57,795
Sensing
that Fanny was up to no good,

803
00:34:57,795 --> 00:35:01,032
the cook warned Kate
against following bad advice.

804
00:35:01,032 --> 00:35:03,334
You've had a good home
and a kind mistress, Kate.

805
00:35:03,334 --> 00:35:05,169
Don't throw that away.

806
00:35:05,169 --> 00:35:07,805
Remember what you were like
when you first came here

807
00:35:07,805 --> 00:35:09,574
with barely a shoe on your foot.

808
00:35:09,574 --> 00:35:11,309
Or a proper dress to wear?

809
00:35:11,309 --> 00:35:13,244
Don't be ungrateful.

810
00:35:13,244 --> 00:35:15,179
I had good shoes and gowns, too.

811
00:35:15,179 --> 00:35:17,115
Well, yes, you did,
but it was the mistress

812
00:35:17,115 --> 00:35:19,050
who bought
most of your decent clothes.

813
00:35:19,050 --> 00:35:20,918
And I know that for sure.

814
00:35:20,918 --> 00:35:23,321
I paid her back
out of my wages for the clothes.

815
00:35:23,321 --> 00:35:26,290
So you don't need
to throw that in my face.

816
00:35:26,290 --> 00:35:26,691
Cook had

817
00:35:26,691 --> 00:35:30,128
meant well, trying
to speak at the right time,

818
00:35:30,128 --> 00:35:32,497
and she genuinely cared
about Kate.

819
00:35:32,497 --> 00:35:33,564
Unfortunately,

820
00:35:33,564 --> 00:35:36,901
she said the wrong thing
and did more harm than good.

821
00:35:36,901 --> 00:35:38,169
She lacked her mistress's

822
00:35:38,169 --> 00:35:40,905
wisdom and patience
in dealing with the young.

823
00:35:40,905 --> 00:35:43,808
She threw my poverty in my face
and I didn't like it.

824
00:35:43,808 --> 00:35:45,810
I'd be surprised if you did.

825
00:35:45,810 --> 00:35:48,346
If I were you,
I wouldn't stay anywhere where

826
00:35:48,346 --> 00:35:52,016
either the mistress or another
servant could do that to me.

827
00:35:52,016 --> 00:35:54,352
Instead of renewing Kate's
gratitude,

828
00:35:54,352 --> 00:35:58,322
cook had stirred up her temper
by reminding her of past favors.

829
00:35:58,322 --> 00:36:01,692
Fanny, seeing the fire kindled,
made sure it didn't

830
00:36:01,692 --> 00:36:05,263
die out and kept
saying more irritating things.

831
00:36:05,263 --> 00:36:08,466
She was so successful
that Kate went to bed that night

832
00:36:08,466 --> 00:36:11,102
feeling rebellious
and discontented.

833
00:36:11,102 --> 00:36:14,872
Kate shed bitter tears, upset
at being reminded of her poverty

834
00:36:14,872 --> 00:36:19,210
when she first arrived and she
felt humiliated and disgraced.

835
00:36:19,210 --> 00:36:20,978
I'd like to
get away from them all.

836
00:36:20,978 --> 00:36:23,047
I don't want to stay
where I might be spoken to.

837
00:36:23,047 --> 00:36:24,549
Like cooked at last night.

838
00:36:24,549 --> 00:36:28,085
Fanny's last Sunday morning
found Kate in no better mood.

839
00:36:28,085 --> 00:36:31,189
And she was more than ready
to give in to temptation again.

840
00:36:31,189 --> 00:36:34,325
Though she pretended to refuse
at first, Mrs.

841
00:36:34,325 --> 00:36:35,660
Bates in is strict.

842
00:36:35,660 --> 00:36:38,829
But it's for our own good,
not for her benefit.

843
00:36:38,829 --> 00:36:41,632
In the end, Kate
gave in to Fanny's suggestion

844
00:36:41,632 --> 00:36:44,402
and spent Sunday morning
without going to church.

845
00:36:44,402 --> 00:36:47,805
Mrs. Bates and didn't say
anything to Kate until Monday.

846
00:36:47,805 --> 00:36:51,242
But the sorrowful
look on her mistress's kind face

847
00:36:51,242 --> 00:36:54,812
spoke louder to Kate's
heart than words could have.

848
00:36:54,812 --> 00:36:57,014
Peter had felt defiant
when she returned from her

849
00:36:57,014 --> 00:36:58,149
walk with Fanny,

850
00:36:58,149 --> 00:37:01,419
but as the quiet hours passed,
she began to realize

851
00:37:01,419 --> 00:37:04,488
the situation
she had placed herself in.

852
00:37:04,488 --> 00:37:05,389
She had the night

853
00:37:05,389 --> 00:37:08,826
to sleep on it,
but sleep was hard to come by.

854
00:37:08,826 --> 00:37:12,797
Hour after hour she lay awake,
thinking about her mistress's

855
00:37:12,797 --> 00:37:16,934
kindness, the good home
she'd had, the regular routine,

856
00:37:16,934 --> 00:37:20,338
the plentiful food,
and the peaceful Sabbaths.

857
00:37:20,338 --> 00:37:21,505
She couldn't stop thinking

858
00:37:21,505 --> 00:37:24,942
about it, and knew her current
health and strength were due

859
00:37:24,942 --> 00:37:27,144
to all these blessings.

860
00:37:27,144 --> 00:37:29,447
She also remembered her
severe illness

861
00:37:29,447 --> 00:37:31,649
in her second year of service.

862
00:37:31,649 --> 00:37:34,952
She had been nursed with care,
treated by the family doctor

863
00:37:34,952 --> 00:37:36,821
at her master's expense,

864
00:37:36,821 --> 00:37:39,257
and given little treats
to tempt her appetite.

865
00:37:39,257 --> 00:37:42,393
When she could finally eat,
she knew that most servants

866
00:37:42,393 --> 00:37:45,529
who fall ill are sent away
to recover on their own,

867
00:37:45,529 --> 00:37:47,231
possibly to a poor home.

868
00:37:47,231 --> 00:37:50,968
Kate had cried out of pride and
hurt feelings the night before.

869
00:37:50,968 --> 00:37:54,538
But now she wept more bitterly,
thinking of her ingratitude

870
00:37:54,538 --> 00:37:56,941
and how much pain
it would cause her mother.

871
00:37:56,941 --> 00:37:59,043
What a poor spirited thing
you are.

872
00:37:59,043 --> 00:38:00,845
You've been crying
half the night.

873
00:38:00,845 --> 00:38:02,079
And for what?

874
00:38:02,079 --> 00:38:03,180
I'll lose my place.

875
00:38:03,180 --> 00:38:05,483
And I know
I deserve to be sent away.

876
00:38:05,483 --> 00:38:07,752
I made a promise
and I've broken it.

877
00:38:07,752 --> 00:38:09,153
It's not easy to think about.

878
00:38:09,153 --> 00:38:13,057
Especially with all my mistress
has done for me and my mother.

879
00:38:13,057 --> 00:38:15,059
Well, you're a fool.

880
00:38:15,059 --> 00:38:17,762
You're always changing sides
like a weathercock.

881
00:38:17,762 --> 00:38:19,930
I never know where you stand.

882
00:38:19,930 --> 00:38:21,265
If you do lose your place.

883
00:38:21,265 --> 00:38:23,834
There are plenty of better ones
out there.

884
00:38:23,834 --> 00:38:27,271
Staying here for three years
is reference enough for anyone?

885
00:38:27,271 --> 00:38:29,840
Just give notice yourself
like I did.

886
00:38:29,840 --> 00:38:30,408
I'm Mrs.

887
00:38:30,408 --> 00:38:33,344
Bates, and we'll see how little
you care about the job.

888
00:38:33,344 --> 00:38:35,880
You don't have
to tell your mother right away.

889
00:38:35,880 --> 00:38:38,849
Wait until you've got
another place lined up.

890
00:38:38,849 --> 00:38:40,651
But Kate felt
she'd already taken

891
00:38:40,651 --> 00:38:43,087
Fanny's advice
one time, too many.

892
00:38:43,087 --> 00:38:45,790
There was no way she would go
that far.

893
00:38:45,790 --> 00:38:48,225
Her suspense didn't last long.

894
00:38:48,225 --> 00:38:50,528
Right after breakfast,
she was called to her

895
00:38:50,528 --> 00:38:52,229
mistress's room.

896
00:38:52,229 --> 00:38:53,631
You know why I've sent for you.

897
00:38:53,631 --> 00:38:54,165
Kate.

898
00:38:54,165 --> 00:38:55,533
I've never gone back on my word

899
00:38:55,533 --> 00:38:56,801
when I've promised you
something.

900
00:38:56,801 --> 00:38:58,836
And I can't do so now.

901
00:38:58,836 --> 00:39:01,038
I don't need to explain why
I'm letting you go.

902
00:39:01,038 --> 00:39:03,674
You already know
without me saying anything.

903
00:39:03,674 --> 00:39:05,209
You'll have to leave
in one month.

904
00:39:05,209 --> 00:39:07,845
And you must understand that
no mistress can keep a girl

905
00:39:07,845 --> 00:39:11,882
who repeatedly disobeys orders
and breaks the household rules.

906
00:39:11,882 --> 00:39:14,085
Kate had expected this,

907
00:39:14,085 --> 00:39:17,388
and she deeply regretted
the behavior that led to it.

908
00:39:17,388 --> 00:39:19,623
She didn't dare
look up at her kind mistress

909
00:39:19,623 --> 00:39:22,159
and couldn't
say a word in her defense.

910
00:39:22,159 --> 00:39:24,795
She stood there, eyes downcast,

911
00:39:24,795 --> 00:39:27,264
with tears already welling up.

912
00:39:27,264 --> 00:39:28,866
What could she say?

913
00:39:28,866 --> 00:39:32,036
Only confess
her ingratitude and foolishness,

914
00:39:32,036 --> 00:39:34,505
and admit that she had followed
bad advice

915
00:39:34,505 --> 00:39:37,141
and acted
against her better judgment.

916
00:39:37,141 --> 00:39:40,010
She would have gladly said this
if she had the slightest hope

917
00:39:40,010 --> 00:39:42,780
of being forgiven.
But she didn't.

918
00:39:42,780 --> 00:39:46,117
And after waiting in silence
for a few moments, Mrs.

919
00:39:46,117 --> 00:39:49,086
Bates and said,
you can leave the room, Kate.

920
00:39:49,086 --> 00:39:51,455
I have nothing more to say
to you at the moment.

921
00:39:51,455 --> 00:39:53,657
Kate turned away
to hide the tears

922
00:39:53,657 --> 00:39:55,593
now streaming down her face,

923
00:39:55,593 --> 00:39:58,996
and left her mistress presence
without a word.

924
00:39:58,996 --> 00:40:02,967
If she had only looked up and
seen the pity and sorrow in Mrs.

925
00:40:02,967 --> 00:40:06,270
Bates's kind face,
she might have tried to speak.

926
00:40:06,270 --> 00:40:07,571
What was in her heart.

927
00:40:07,571 --> 00:40:08,939
But she didn't.

928
00:40:08,939 --> 00:40:11,642
And as she walked slowly away,
she left Mrs.

929
00:40:11,642 --> 00:40:14,478
Bates, and, thinking the girl
she had done so much for,

930
00:40:14,478 --> 00:40:18,649
was both ungrateful
and willfully disobedient.

931
00:40:18,649 --> 00:40:20,885
Fanny was not far off

932
00:40:20,885 --> 00:40:23,521
throughout that day,
and the next

933
00:40:23,521 --> 00:40:26,457
she tried in her own way
to cheer Kate by repeating

934
00:40:26,457 --> 00:40:27,825
all her old arguments

935
00:40:27,825 --> 00:40:30,895
about not being controlled
and treated like children.

936
00:40:30,895 --> 00:40:33,664
But her words
brought no comfort,

937
00:40:33,664 --> 00:40:35,933
while Kate couldn't help
but hear them.

938
00:40:35,933 --> 00:40:38,669
Her mind was on the past
three years of comfort,

939
00:40:38,669 --> 00:40:41,238
plenty and peace in that home

940
00:40:41,238 --> 00:40:42,840
and the kindness
she had received

941
00:40:42,840 --> 00:40:46,177
there, saying to herself,
if I hadn't listened to you,

942
00:40:46,177 --> 00:40:49,680
I might still be looking forward
to more happy years here.

943
00:40:49,680 --> 00:40:53,551
Now I must leave and they'll
think I've acted so badly.

944
00:40:53,551 --> 00:40:56,587
Fanny left in high
spirits on Wednesday morning,

945
00:40:56,587 --> 00:40:59,223
and despite the harm
her influence had done,

946
00:40:59,223 --> 00:41:02,460
Kate felt even more unhappy
when she was gone.

947
00:41:02,460 --> 00:41:05,796
She had offended the cook,
her old friend, by resenting her

948
00:41:05,796 --> 00:41:09,366
well-meaning advice,
and now they barely spoke.

949
00:41:09,366 --> 00:41:12,002
Kate can go her own way
for all I care.

950
00:41:12,002 --> 00:41:14,138
She's just a girl of 20
and I'm twice

951
00:41:14,138 --> 00:41:16,574
her age, old enough
to be her mother.

952
00:41:16,574 --> 00:41:18,242
I've tried to act like one
to her.

953
00:41:18,242 --> 00:41:19,844
Helped her in many ways
because I

954
00:41:19,844 --> 00:41:21,912
thought she wanted to do right.

955
00:41:21,912 --> 00:41:24,181
But now she's gone
against the mistress's orders

956
00:41:24,181 --> 00:41:26,851
and got upset with me
just for reminding her of what's

957
00:41:26,851 --> 00:41:30,821
been done for her
and giving us some good advice.

958
00:41:30,821 --> 00:41:32,823
Well, she can go her own way.

959
00:41:32,823 --> 00:41:36,293
I won't interfere any more,
no matter what happens.

960
00:41:36,293 --> 00:41:38,529
I'll be polite and speak
when it's about the house.

961
00:41:38,529 --> 00:41:39,630
But that's all.

962
00:41:39,630 --> 00:41:42,366
If Kate wants to make up,
it's up to her, not me.

963
00:41:42,366 --> 00:41:45,669
I won't swallow my pride because
I only tried to help her.

964
00:41:45,669 --> 00:41:48,005
The ungrateful thing.

965
00:41:48,005 --> 00:41:50,107
Fanny's parting words were.

966
00:41:50,107 --> 00:41:51,108
Cheer up, Kate.

967
00:41:51,108 --> 00:41:53,310
Don't go around
looking so miserable.

968
00:41:53,310 --> 00:41:55,246
I'll find you a better place
soon.

969
00:41:55,246 --> 00:41:58,215
And better wages
too. Don't worry.

970
00:41:58,215 --> 00:42:01,719
Even this promise didn't lift
the burden from Kate's mind.

971
00:42:01,719 --> 00:42:04,722
Fortunately,
her conscience wasn't silenced.

972
00:42:04,722 --> 00:42:08,792
It made itself heard and left
her feeling very unhappy.

973
00:42:08,792 --> 00:42:11,462
She would have gladly done
anything to show her regret

974
00:42:11,462 --> 00:42:13,831
and her words of forgiveness
from Mrs. Bates.

975
00:42:13,831 --> 00:42:16,567
And even though she didn't
expect her notice

976
00:42:16,567 --> 00:42:18,068
to be withdrawn,

977
00:42:18,068 --> 00:42:21,372
she wanted to talk to the cook,
but got no encouragement.

978
00:42:21,372 --> 00:42:23,641
The older servant
stuck to her decision,

979
00:42:23,641 --> 00:42:27,511
answering yes or no
when asked a question.

980
00:42:27,511 --> 00:42:31,148
Speaking only when necessary
and saying as little as possible

981
00:42:31,148 --> 00:42:34,351
before closing her lips
and keeping to herself.

982
00:42:34,351 --> 00:42:37,521
Seeing she was avoided,
and that her fellow servants

983
00:42:37,521 --> 00:42:41,225
also disapproved of her behavior
toward their mistress, Kate

984
00:42:41,225 --> 00:42:43,827
spent as little time as possible
with them

985
00:42:43,827 --> 00:42:45,763
and retreated to her own room,

986
00:42:45,763 --> 00:42:47,898
where she regretted in solitude
the mistake

987
00:42:47,898 --> 00:42:50,301
she would have been more
than willing to confess.

988
00:42:50,301 --> 00:42:54,271
If only she could
regain her mistress's favor.

989
00:42:54,271 --> 00:42:57,808
Chapter three misunderstandings.

990
00:42:57,808 --> 00:43:00,878
Mrs. Bates initially
thought about informing

991
00:43:00,878 --> 00:43:04,448
Kate's mother that the girl
would be leaving her position.

992
00:43:04,448 --> 00:43:07,384
But after some reflection,
she decided to wait

993
00:43:07,384 --> 00:43:10,354
and see how Kate conducted
herself in the meantime,

994
00:43:10,354 --> 00:43:12,890
giving her a chance
to ask for forgiveness.

995
00:43:12,890 --> 00:43:16,126
Mrs. Bates and naturally felt
that Kate should apologize,

996
00:43:16,126 --> 00:43:16,694
and would do

997
00:43:16,694 --> 00:43:20,431
so if she realized her mistake
and wanted to keep her job.

998
00:43:20,431 --> 00:43:24,268
She believed Kate's actions were
due to Fanny's bad influence,

999
00:43:24,268 --> 00:43:27,271
and regretted that Kate
had been exposed to it.

1000
00:43:27,271 --> 00:43:29,039
Now that Fanny was gone.

1001
00:43:29,039 --> 00:43:32,242
If Kate was truly sorry,
there was nothing stopping her

1002
00:43:32,242 --> 00:43:33,510
from expressing it.

1003
00:43:33,510 --> 00:43:34,745
But there was something Mrs.

1004
00:43:34,745 --> 00:43:37,414
Bates in, and the cook didn't
quite understand.

1005
00:43:37,414 --> 00:43:40,317
The same nature that made Kate
easily influenced

1006
00:43:40,317 --> 00:43:42,920
also made her fearful and timid,

1007
00:43:42,920 --> 00:43:45,990
especially when it came
to facing rejection.

1008
00:43:45,990 --> 00:43:49,259
She was easily led,
but also easily frightened.

1009
00:43:49,259 --> 00:43:52,129
The one thought that weighed on
her mind was

1010
00:43:52,129 --> 00:43:53,597
everyone is against me.

1011
00:43:53,597 --> 00:43:57,368
I know I've done wrong, but
they don't have to be so harsh.

1012
00:43:57,368 --> 00:44:00,237
Cook avoids talking to me
and I'm sure the others will do

1013
00:44:00,237 --> 00:44:01,772
the same.

1014
00:44:01,772 --> 00:44:03,407
Fanny, who got me into this,

1015
00:44:03,407 --> 00:44:06,210
is gone and left me
to deal with it alone.

1016
00:44:06,210 --> 00:44:08,479
If only my mistress
would give me a kind word.

1017
00:44:08,479 --> 00:44:10,614
Or look, I could speak.

1018
00:44:10,614 --> 00:44:11,949
But I'm too scared.

1019
00:44:11,949 --> 00:44:13,550
It's a pity
that people are often

1020
00:44:13,550 --> 00:44:16,620
bold enough to make a mistake,
but too afraid to admit it.

1021
00:44:16,620 --> 00:44:19,356
It's also unfortunate
that elders don't always

1022
00:44:19,356 --> 00:44:22,459
remember how easy it is for them
to speak words

1023
00:44:22,459 --> 00:44:26,296
that the young find hard to say,
not out of unwillingness,

1024
00:44:26,296 --> 00:44:29,133
but fear of how those words
will be received.

1025
00:44:29,133 --> 00:44:32,703
Kate threw herself into her work
with greater diligence,

1026
00:44:32,703 --> 00:44:34,271
leaving nothing undone

1027
00:44:34,271 --> 00:44:37,107
and doing everything
as perfectly as possible.

1028
00:44:37,107 --> 00:44:38,409
She hoped this would show her

1029
00:44:38,409 --> 00:44:41,912
mistress that she was sorry
and wanted her to know it.

1030
00:44:41,912 --> 00:44:42,813
But whenever Mrs.

1031
00:44:42,813 --> 00:44:46,116
Bates and was near, Kate
seemed to shrink into herself,

1032
00:44:46,116 --> 00:44:49,687
unable to express the feelings
that filled her heart.

1033
00:44:49,687 --> 00:44:53,090
Mrs. Bates and noticed Kate's
careful work, but also her

1034
00:44:53,090 --> 00:44:57,695
silence and averted gaze,
and she misunderstood both.

1035
00:44:57,695 --> 00:44:59,630
She thought to herself.

1036
00:44:59,630 --> 00:45:02,833
Kate is determined to earn
a good reference for her work,

1037
00:45:02,833 --> 00:45:05,369
but she's too proud
to ask for forgiveness.

1038
00:45:05,369 --> 00:45:08,072
I'm starting to doubt
if she even wants to stay.

1039
00:45:08,072 --> 00:45:11,775
She seems so sullen and avoids
me as much as possible.

1040
00:45:11,775 --> 00:45:15,546
Mrs. Bates and then spoke
to the cook about the situation.

1041
00:45:15,546 --> 00:45:17,948
Do you think Kate is sorry
about having to leave?

1042
00:45:17,948 --> 00:45:19,850
Honestly, ma'am, I can't tell.

1043
00:45:19,850 --> 00:45:23,020
When I spoke to her before
that troublesome Fanny left

1044
00:45:23,020 --> 00:45:25,823
and reminded her
of how much you'd done for her.

1045
00:45:25,823 --> 00:45:28,759
How you took her in
with barely a gown to her back,

1046
00:45:28,759 --> 00:45:31,995
clothed her, and taught her
to be what she is.

1047
00:45:31,995 --> 00:45:33,931
She flew at me in anger.

1048
00:45:33,931 --> 00:45:35,933
That's
how these young girls are.

1049
00:45:35,933 --> 00:45:39,002
You lift them out of a poor
place where they've had nothing.

1050
00:45:39,002 --> 00:45:41,071
Bring them
into a home like this,

1051
00:45:41,071 --> 00:45:45,275
and they don't know how to
appreciate it or be grateful.

1052
00:45:45,275 --> 00:45:47,277
I never
thought Kate was ungrateful.

1053
00:45:47,277 --> 00:45:47,745
I've wondered

1054
00:45:47,745 --> 00:45:49,513
if she's just afraid
to speak to me,

1055
00:45:49,513 --> 00:45:52,783
or if she's stubborn and refuses
to admit she was wrong.

1056
00:45:52,783 --> 00:45:56,787
I feel sad for her, both for her
own sake and her mother's.

1057
00:45:56,787 --> 00:45:59,123
I agree, ma'am,
it's disappointing.

1058
00:45:59,123 --> 00:46:01,592
I'm much older than her
and I've tried to help her,

1059
00:46:01,592 --> 00:46:02,860
but when she turned on me,

1060
00:46:02,860 --> 00:46:06,897
I decided I wouldn't interfere
unless she came to me first.

1061
00:46:06,897 --> 00:46:08,565
I'm polite to Kate.

1062
00:46:08,565 --> 00:46:08,966
I don't

1063
00:46:08,966 --> 00:46:12,603
give her any harsh words, but
I only talk to her about work.

1064
00:46:12,603 --> 00:46:14,772
I think she's just
set in her ways now.

1065
00:46:14,772 --> 00:46:17,641
She keeps to herself and avoids
everyone.

1066
00:46:17,641 --> 00:46:19,143
She's doing her work
better than ever.

1067
00:46:19,143 --> 00:46:20,778
I think.

1068
00:46:20,778 --> 00:46:21,345
Yes, ma'am.

1069
00:46:21,345 --> 00:46:23,947
And thanks to you,
she knows how to do it right.

1070
00:46:23,947 --> 00:46:25,716
Fanny told her that
with three years

1071
00:46:25,716 --> 00:46:27,751
experience here,
she can get a good job

1072
00:46:27,751 --> 00:46:31,455
anywhere without people caring
how she spends her Sundays.

1073
00:46:31,455 --> 00:46:33,690
Mrs. Bates
and was saddened to find her own

1074
00:46:33,690 --> 00:46:36,994
impressions of Kate confirmed
by her trusted servant.

1075
00:46:36,994 --> 00:46:40,264
She concluded that Kate
was being sullen and too proud

1076
00:46:40,264 --> 00:46:43,133
to admit her mistake,
while in reality

1077
00:46:43,133 --> 00:46:45,769
Kate was longing for a chance
to speak,

1078
00:46:45,769 --> 00:46:48,572
but feared that her words
would make no difference.

1079
00:46:48,572 --> 00:46:51,375
This situation
dragged on for two weeks

1080
00:46:51,375 --> 00:46:55,212
until Kate received a second
letter from Fanny Ellis.

1081
00:46:55,212 --> 00:46:58,582
Fanny had written soon
after leaving to let Kate know

1082
00:46:58,582 --> 00:47:00,117
she was looking out for her,

1083
00:47:00,117 --> 00:47:02,486
saying there were plenty of jobs
available,

1084
00:47:02,486 --> 00:47:04,922
but she wanted to find her
a really good one,

1085
00:47:04,922 --> 00:47:06,690
near to herself.

1086
00:47:06,690 --> 00:47:09,459
By this time, Kate was doubtful
whether Fanny's

1087
00:47:09,459 --> 00:47:12,763
idea of a real good place
would match her own,

1088
00:47:12,763 --> 00:47:16,967
and whether being near Fanny
would be a help or a hindrance.

1089
00:47:16,967 --> 00:47:19,603
As the days passed,
without any acknowledgment

1090
00:47:19,603 --> 00:47:24,441
of her hard work, without a kind
look or word of encouragement,

1091
00:47:24,441 --> 00:47:28,879
Kate first fell into despair
and then grew indignant.

1092
00:47:28,879 --> 00:47:30,948
She cried bitterly
in the solitude

1093
00:47:30,948 --> 00:47:33,750
of her little room,
telling herself, Mrs.

1094
00:47:33,750 --> 00:47:35,819
Bates, and could give me
another chance.

1095
00:47:35,819 --> 00:47:37,221
She must see that I'm sorry,

1096
00:47:37,221 --> 00:47:39,957
because I'm doing
everything I can to please her.

1097
00:47:39,957 --> 00:47:42,392
And if I were a lady
and mistress of a big house,

1098
00:47:42,392 --> 00:47:44,862
I wouldn't
be so hard on a young girl.

1099
00:47:44,862 --> 00:47:46,630
She probably won't
ask me to stay.

1100
00:47:46,630 --> 00:47:49,266
But she doesn't have to be
so cold and distant.

1101
00:47:49,266 --> 00:47:51,802
She just walks
past me as if I'm invisible.

1102
00:47:51,802 --> 00:47:54,638
Soon angry
thoughts began to take over

1103
00:47:54,638 --> 00:47:57,174
and Kate found herself thinking,

1104
00:47:57,174 --> 00:47:59,543
I don't care about staying here
anymore.

1105
00:47:59,543 --> 00:48:01,545
I'd just be miserable with cook,

1106
00:48:01,545 --> 00:48:05,215
who used to be so kind
but has now turned against me.

1107
00:48:05,215 --> 00:48:08,352
Everyone has all over one
small mistake.

1108
00:48:08,352 --> 00:48:09,987
It's not fair.

1109
00:48:09,987 --> 00:48:11,989
I know mother will be upset
that I'm leaving,

1110
00:48:11,989 --> 00:48:13,323
but she'll have to get over it.

1111
00:48:13,323 --> 00:48:15,425
Mrs. Bates
and hasn't written to her yet.

1112
00:48:15,425 --> 00:48:16,393
And I won't either.

1113
00:48:16,393 --> 00:48:18,896
Not until I have a new place
lined up.

1114
00:48:18,896 --> 00:48:23,033
Just when Kate reached this
point, the certainty arrived.

1115
00:48:23,033 --> 00:48:24,268
Fanny wrote.

1116
00:48:24,268 --> 00:48:26,670
I've found you a great place
with 3 pounds a year

1117
00:48:26,670 --> 00:48:28,438
more than you're getting now.

1118
00:48:28,438 --> 00:48:29,873
It's almost settled.

1119
00:48:29,873 --> 00:48:32,743
Mrs. May Brook is writing
for your reference today.

1120
00:48:32,743 --> 00:48:33,510
Mrs. Bates in

1121
00:48:33,510 --> 00:48:35,279
can't help
giving you a good one,

1122
00:48:35,279 --> 00:48:37,681
because your work
has been excellent.

1123
00:48:37,681 --> 00:48:38,448
Mrs. May Brook

1124
00:48:38,448 --> 00:48:42,085
said it's just a formality to
ask for your reference, because

1125
00:48:42,085 --> 00:48:45,756
three years at your current
place is enough for anyone.

1126
00:48:45,756 --> 00:48:48,892
I told you it would be Kate,
so now you can laugh at that

1127
00:48:48,892 --> 00:48:52,763
old cook and feel independent
of both her and Mrs.

1128
00:48:52,763 --> 00:48:54,097
Bates, and you'll get

1129
00:48:54,097 --> 00:48:57,034
every third Sunday off,
and no one will ask

1130
00:48:57,034 --> 00:49:00,270
where you go or preach at you
for taking a walk

1131
00:49:00,270 --> 00:49:04,041
instead of sitting in a stuffy
pew under a watchful eye.

1132
00:49:04,041 --> 00:49:06,276
I'll try to get out
on the same days

1133
00:49:06,276 --> 00:49:07,978
and we won't be far apart.

1134
00:49:07,978 --> 00:49:11,281
There's only one thing you'll
have to go straight to Mrs.

1135
00:49:11,281 --> 00:49:13,216
May bricks the day you leave.

1136
00:49:13,216 --> 00:49:13,984
Her housemaid

1137
00:49:13,984 --> 00:49:17,821
leaves four days earlier,
and she's expecting guests,

1138
00:49:17,821 --> 00:49:20,390
so she can't wait
longer than that for you.

1139
00:49:20,390 --> 00:49:23,760
I hope you think I've done
well for you with love

1140
00:49:23,760 --> 00:49:26,063
and looking forward
to seeing you soon.

1141
00:49:26,063 --> 00:49:29,132
Your affectionate friend,
Fanny Ellis.

1142
00:49:29,132 --> 00:49:31,935
Fanny's letter fueled
Kate's feelings of anger

1143
00:49:31,935 --> 00:49:33,103
and independence.

1144
00:49:33,103 --> 00:49:36,473
She wrote back immediately,
agreeing to go straight to Mrs.

1145
00:49:36,473 --> 00:49:38,008
May bricks.

1146
00:49:38,008 --> 00:49:40,110
He was relieved
she wouldn't have to face

1147
00:49:40,110 --> 00:49:42,713
her mother just yet, and glad
that Mrs.

1148
00:49:42,713 --> 00:49:46,350
Beatson would have to speak to
her when asked for a reference.

1149
00:49:46,350 --> 00:49:49,586
Soon she would be free of
everyone who had judged her

1150
00:49:49,586 --> 00:49:50,921
so quickly.

1151
00:49:50,921 --> 00:49:51,455
When Mrs.

1152
00:49:51,455 --> 00:49:54,691
May Brick's letter arrived,
it surprised and saddened Mrs.

1153
00:49:54,691 --> 00:49:55,525
Beatson.

1154
00:49:55,525 --> 00:49:58,862
She didn't expect Kate to act
independently of her mother,

1155
00:49:58,862 --> 00:50:00,430
and she was certain that if Mrs.

1156
00:50:00,430 --> 00:50:02,466
Evans had known
her daughter was leaving,

1157
00:50:02,466 --> 00:50:04,334
she would have contacted her.

1158
00:50:04,334 --> 00:50:05,702
And Kate was called to Mrs.

1159
00:50:05,702 --> 00:50:06,703
Bates's room.

1160
00:50:06,703 --> 00:50:09,272
Her changed
manner was immediately obvious,

1161
00:50:09,272 --> 00:50:12,242
confirming the lady's
previous suspicions.

1162
00:50:12,242 --> 00:50:14,811
He no longer stood with downcast
eyes.

1163
00:50:14,811 --> 00:50:17,247
Instead,
she held herself upright,

1164
00:50:17,247 --> 00:50:19,049
waiting to be spoken to.

1165
00:50:19,049 --> 00:50:21,184
There was no rudeness
or defiance,

1166
00:50:21,184 --> 00:50:23,854
just a clear
sense of independence.

1167
00:50:23,854 --> 00:50:26,289
I received a letter this morning
and wanted to speak to you

1168
00:50:26,289 --> 00:50:27,391
about it. Kate.

1169
00:50:27,391 --> 00:50:28,725
I assume you know that Mrs.

1170
00:50:28,725 --> 00:50:31,762
May Britt has written to inquire
about your reference.

1171
00:50:31,762 --> 00:50:32,796
Yes, ma'am.

1172
00:50:32,796 --> 00:50:35,999
I heard this morning that
she was going to write to you.

1173
00:50:35,999 --> 00:50:37,901
I doubt
your mother knows about this.

1174
00:50:37,901 --> 00:50:40,237
Have you told her that you're
leaving your place and why?

1175
00:50:40,237 --> 00:50:42,406
I had to give you notice.

1176
00:50:42,406 --> 00:50:43,407
No, ma'am.

1177
00:50:43,407 --> 00:50:46,176
I didn't want to burden mother
if I could avoid it.

1178
00:50:46,176 --> 00:50:48,812
She has enough on her plate
with the younger ones.

1179
00:50:48,812 --> 00:50:50,981
So I thought I'd make sure
I had another place

1180
00:50:50,981 --> 00:50:53,583
lined up before telling her
I was leaving here.

1181
00:50:53,583 --> 00:50:54,885
And you don't think
it will trouble

1182
00:50:54,885 --> 00:50:55,419
your mother

1183
00:50:55,419 --> 00:50:57,020
that you're
making such decisions

1184
00:50:57,020 --> 00:50:59,222
without her advice,
or that you're withholding

1185
00:50:59,222 --> 00:51:01,825
the trust a daughter
should give her mother, who is,

1186
00:51:01,825 --> 00:51:04,961
after all, your best friend
on this earth.

1187
00:51:04,961 --> 00:51:07,597
Kate hesitated for a moment,

1188
00:51:07,597 --> 00:51:10,167
a slight
tremble of her lip and a flush

1189
00:51:10,167 --> 00:51:13,136
on her cheek showed that
the question had touched her.

1190
00:51:13,136 --> 00:51:16,807
But she pushed those feelings
aside and replied steadily.

1191
00:51:16,807 --> 00:51:18,241
I did it for the best, ma'am.

1192
00:51:18,241 --> 00:51:21,978
I needed a place, and
I didn't want to rely on mother.

1193
00:51:21,978 --> 00:51:23,680
Perhaps you think
it's not my place

1194
00:51:23,680 --> 00:51:26,316
to ask such questions
now that you're leaving, Kate.

1195
00:51:26,316 --> 00:51:28,852
But for your mother's sake
and for your own,

1196
00:51:28,852 --> 00:51:30,554
I would like to know
how you found out

1197
00:51:30,554 --> 00:51:31,788
about the position that Mrs.

1198
00:51:31,788 --> 00:51:35,792
May bricks Fanny Ellis
went after it for me.

1199
00:51:35,792 --> 00:51:38,562
She's living in Manchester now,
and if I get the place,

1200
00:51:38,562 --> 00:51:39,830
I won't be far from her.

1201
00:51:39,830 --> 00:51:42,499
So I'll have at least
one friend to talk to.

1202
00:51:42,499 --> 00:51:45,402
I suspected Fanny had a hand
in this, just as she did

1203
00:51:45,402 --> 00:51:48,538
when she persuaded you
to defy the household rules.

1204
00:51:48,538 --> 00:51:51,441
She's not the kind of friend
your mother would want for you.

1205
00:51:51,441 --> 00:51:53,910
And I regret you ever met her.

1206
00:51:53,910 --> 00:51:55,178
I'll respond to Mrs.

1207
00:51:55,178 --> 00:51:56,346
May Briggs letter.

1208
00:51:56,346 --> 00:51:59,182
It will be easy as she only asks
about your work.

1209
00:51:59,182 --> 00:52:02,319
She hasn't inquired
about more important matters.

1210
00:52:02,319 --> 00:52:04,121
That is, thought, Kate.

1211
00:52:04,121 --> 00:52:05,088
She doesn't care

1212
00:52:05,088 --> 00:52:06,890
whether I pretend
to be very religious

1213
00:52:06,890 --> 00:52:09,226
or fuss about church and Sunday,
like Mrs.

1214
00:52:09,226 --> 00:52:11,595
Bates in Good.

1215
00:52:11,595 --> 00:52:13,964
I'll show her
I can do my job well.

1216
00:52:13,964 --> 00:52:16,433
And I don't think a mistress
has the right to interfere

1217
00:52:16,433 --> 00:52:18,735
with what we do
beyond the doorstep.

1218
00:52:18,735 --> 00:52:20,670
I've had enough of that,
Mrs. Bates.

1219
00:52:20,670 --> 00:52:23,640
And seemed to sense what was
going through Kate's mind,

1220
00:52:23,640 --> 00:52:26,576
as there was no sign of regret
on the girl's face.

1221
00:52:26,576 --> 00:52:27,644
The mention of Mrs.

1222
00:52:27,644 --> 00:52:31,848
May Brick's inquiry had struck
a nerve and Kate thought,

1223
00:52:31,848 --> 00:52:34,351
I've started this
and I'll see it through.

1224
00:52:34,351 --> 00:52:37,487
I would have gladly asked
for forgiveness at first, but

1225
00:52:37,487 --> 00:52:40,891
after being cold shouldered,
I'm not going to grovel now.

1226
00:52:40,891 --> 00:52:42,526
Out loud, Kate said,

1227
00:52:42,526 --> 00:52:45,762
I hope you have nothing to find
fault with in my work, ma'am.

1228
00:52:45,762 --> 00:52:47,497
I've always tried to do that
well.

1229
00:52:47,497 --> 00:52:50,233
In her heart,
she couldn't help but think.

1230
00:52:50,233 --> 00:52:52,369
I owe you
for all the effort and patience

1231
00:52:52,369 --> 00:52:55,705
you showed teaching me
to be a capable servant.

1232
00:52:55,705 --> 00:52:57,607
But she didn't say it aloud.

1233
00:52:57,607 --> 00:52:59,409
It was a pity she didn't.

1234
00:52:59,409 --> 00:52:59,910
For Mrs.

1235
00:52:59,910 --> 00:53:01,711
Bates and was thinking the same.

1236
00:53:01,711 --> 00:53:05,882
She felt hurt by Kate's apparent
indifference and ingratitude.

1237
00:53:05,882 --> 00:53:08,652
If only Kate had been able
to overcome her pride

1238
00:53:08,652 --> 00:53:11,955
and acknowledge the kindness
shown over the past three years.

1239
00:53:11,955 --> 00:53:14,658
Just a simple word of
thanks would have been enough.

1240
00:53:14,658 --> 00:53:17,160
It would have proved that
despite her mistake,

1241
00:53:17,160 --> 00:53:19,796
she hadn't forgotten
the kindness she received.

1242
00:53:19,796 --> 00:53:23,099
Kate had the opportunity,
but let it slip and Mrs.

1243
00:53:23,099 --> 00:53:26,269
Bates, and saw no other choice
but to let her go.

1244
00:53:26,269 --> 00:53:27,170
I will tell Mrs.

1245
00:53:27,170 --> 00:53:28,071
May brick that you know

1246
00:53:28,071 --> 00:53:31,107
the duties of such a place,
and that you do your work well.

1247
00:53:31,107 --> 00:53:32,876
She hasn't asked
why you're leaving.

1248
00:53:32,876 --> 00:53:35,912
I think Fanny told her
everything to avoid the trouble.

1249
00:53:35,912 --> 00:53:37,080
Kate knew that Mrs.

1250
00:53:37,080 --> 00:53:39,983
May brick had laughed
when she heard the story,

1251
00:53:39,983 --> 00:53:40,917
saying she wouldn't

1252
00:53:40,917 --> 00:53:43,987
dismiss a good servant
for such a minor issue.

1253
00:53:43,987 --> 00:53:46,456
I believe I must write
to your mother now, Kate.

1254
00:53:46,456 --> 00:53:47,490
She deserves to know what

1255
00:53:47,490 --> 00:53:49,893
has happened
and what you're planning.

1256
00:53:49,893 --> 00:53:52,629
I hope you'll tell her, ma'am,
that you gave me notice.

1257
00:53:52,629 --> 00:53:55,098
I didn't want to leave,
truly, Mrs.

1258
00:53:55,098 --> 00:53:56,666
Bates, and replied,

1259
00:53:56,666 --> 00:53:58,802
I will tell your mother exactly
what happened.

1260
00:53:58,802 --> 00:54:00,036
Kate, and inform her

1261
00:54:00,036 --> 00:54:03,006
that after Monday week,
I will no longer be responsible

1262
00:54:03,006 --> 00:54:03,740
for you.

1263
00:54:03,740 --> 00:54:06,243
I can only hope this change
will be for your good

1264
00:54:06,243 --> 00:54:08,478
and won't
bring more worry to your mother.

1265
00:54:08,478 --> 00:54:11,047
Mrs. Bates and didn't
respond to Kate's comment

1266
00:54:11,047 --> 00:54:12,949
about not wanting to leave

1267
00:54:12,949 --> 00:54:15,352
without any real expression
of regret.

1268
00:54:15,352 --> 00:54:18,121
It came across
as almost insolent.

1269
00:54:18,121 --> 00:54:19,923
What else could it mean

1270
00:54:19,923 --> 00:54:21,958
but that Kate wished to stay

1271
00:54:21,958 --> 00:54:24,894
on her own terms,
disobeying her mistress

1272
00:54:24,894 --> 00:54:29,666
and ignoring the household rules
whenever she pleased?

1273
00:54:29,666 --> 00:54:30,867
Chapter four.

1274
00:54:30,867 --> 00:54:34,104
A rift in the cloud.

1275
00:54:34,104 --> 00:54:36,773
Kate wasn't left in suspense
for long.

1276
00:54:36,773 --> 00:54:38,842
She soon received
a letter from Mrs.

1277
00:54:38,842 --> 00:54:40,076
May brick, confirming

1278
00:54:40,076 --> 00:54:42,946
that she was satisfied
with the reference given by Mrs.

1279
00:54:42,946 --> 00:54:46,483
Beatson, and would hire her
under the terms Fanny Ellis

1280
00:54:46,483 --> 00:54:48,318
had arranged.

1281
00:54:48,318 --> 00:54:51,388
Mrs. May brick required
Kate to go directly from Mrs.

1282
00:54:51,388 --> 00:54:55,859
Bates and to her new position
as the servant she was replacing

1283
00:54:55,859 --> 00:54:57,827
would be leaving
three days earlier,

1284
00:54:57,827 --> 00:55:01,097
and it would be inconvenient
to wait longer for Kate.

1285
00:55:01,097 --> 00:55:02,632
Kate didn't mind.

1286
00:55:02,632 --> 00:55:04,968
She wasn't comfortable
at the thought of facing her

1287
00:55:04,968 --> 00:55:07,771
mother
for the first time in her life.

1288
00:55:07,771 --> 00:55:10,774
The idea of going home
wasn't entirely pleasant.

1289
00:55:10,774 --> 00:55:13,476
She missed her mother
and her younger siblings,

1290
00:55:13,476 --> 00:55:14,644
who always looked forward

1291
00:55:14,644 --> 00:55:18,114
to her visits
as a bright spot in their lives.

1292
00:55:18,114 --> 00:55:20,984
Throughout the year, Kate
would spend many of her spare

1293
00:55:20,984 --> 00:55:24,788
hours making small garments
and finding ways to make odds

1294
00:55:24,788 --> 00:55:27,424
and ends useful for her mother
and the children.

1295
00:55:27,424 --> 00:55:29,125
Had everything gone as planned?

1296
00:55:29,125 --> 00:55:32,262
Kate would have had a two week
holiday coming up soon.

1297
00:55:32,262 --> 00:55:33,163
She often pictured

1298
00:55:33,163 --> 00:55:36,266
the children's bright faces
when she arrived,

1299
00:55:36,266 --> 00:55:36,933
and her mother's

1300
00:55:36,933 --> 00:55:40,503
weary expression giving way
to joy at her homecoming.

1301
00:55:40,503 --> 00:55:41,805
Now she wouldn't see them.

1302
00:55:41,805 --> 00:55:43,640
She wouldn't
hear the cries of delight

1303
00:55:43,640 --> 00:55:46,710
as she handed out the little
treasures she had made for them.

1304
00:55:46,710 --> 00:55:48,611
They would still receive
the things,

1305
00:55:48,611 --> 00:55:50,280
but not from her hands,

1306
00:55:50,280 --> 00:55:52,982
and she didn't know
when she would see them again.

1307
00:55:52,982 --> 00:55:55,952
Mrs. May brick made no promises
about holidays later

1308
00:55:55,952 --> 00:55:56,820
in the year.

1309
00:55:56,820 --> 00:55:59,956
Mrs. May brick had told
Fanny Ellis, I won't commit

1310
00:55:59,956 --> 00:56:03,293
to any specific time or promise
a long holiday.

1311
00:56:03,293 --> 00:56:06,262
Kate must come to me at once,
and when it's convenient

1312
00:56:06,262 --> 00:56:08,998
for the family,
I'll give her a few days.

1313
00:56:08,998 --> 00:56:11,968
She can't expect a long break
right away.

1314
00:56:11,968 --> 00:56:13,603
This was fair enough,

1315
00:56:13,603 --> 00:56:15,372
but it hurt
Kate to miss the holiday

1316
00:56:15,372 --> 00:56:17,741
she had looked forward to
for nearly a year,

1317
00:56:17,741 --> 00:56:19,642
especially since
it had been eight months

1318
00:56:19,642 --> 00:56:21,911
since she had seen anyone
from home.

1319
00:56:21,911 --> 00:56:25,148
70 miles wasn't
much for someone with money,

1320
00:56:25,148 --> 00:56:27,450
but it was a significant expense
for a hard

1321
00:56:27,450 --> 00:56:28,685
working mother of six

1322
00:56:28,685 --> 00:56:32,522
children, with only the eldest
earning anything.

1323
00:56:32,522 --> 00:56:34,758
Kate sighed
as she thought of these things

1324
00:56:34,758 --> 00:56:36,393
and dreaded the effect of Mrs.

1325
00:56:36,393 --> 00:56:38,361
Bates's letter on her mother.

1326
00:56:38,361 --> 00:56:39,963
She wished
the letter could be delayed

1327
00:56:39,963 --> 00:56:43,099
until she could send
word of success in her new job,

1328
00:56:43,099 --> 00:56:45,602
along with news
that she could send more money

1329
00:56:45,602 --> 00:56:47,937
from her increased wages.

1330
00:56:47,937 --> 00:56:49,172
Days passed

1331
00:56:49,172 --> 00:56:51,474
and Kate
heard nothing from home.

1332
00:56:51,474 --> 00:56:52,709
She began to think Mrs.

1333
00:56:52,709 --> 00:56:54,978
Bates
and hadn't written after all.

1334
00:56:54,978 --> 00:56:57,080
Then a letter arrived,

1335
00:56:57,080 --> 00:57:00,016
written in a far better hand
than her mother's.

1336
00:57:00,016 --> 00:57:01,751
It was enclosed in a letter
to Mrs.

1337
00:57:01,751 --> 00:57:04,020
Beatson and brought sad news.

1338
00:57:04,020 --> 00:57:04,854
Three of Kate's

1339
00:57:04,854 --> 00:57:07,657
youngest siblings were ill
with a scarlet fever.

1340
00:57:07,657 --> 00:57:08,925
The family hoped the older

1341
00:57:08,925 --> 00:57:12,362
children wouldn't catch it, as
two had already had it before.

1342
00:57:12,362 --> 00:57:14,664
John's earnings had stopped
because he wasn't allowed

1343
00:57:14,664 --> 00:57:17,567
to work for fear
of spreading the infection.

1344
00:57:17,567 --> 00:57:20,103
There was no hospital
or fever house near Mrs.

1345
00:57:20,103 --> 00:57:21,171
Evans's village,

1346
00:57:21,171 --> 00:57:23,907
so the sick children
had to be cared for at home.

1347
00:57:23,907 --> 00:57:26,676
Kate could easily picture
the situation.

1348
00:57:26,676 --> 00:57:30,413
Her mother was known as the best
laundress around Garfield,

1349
00:57:30,413 --> 00:57:35,251
and work had never been scarce,
but now it would surely dry up

1350
00:57:35,251 --> 00:57:38,154
even if she could manage her
laundry duties while tending

1351
00:57:38,154 --> 00:57:39,222
to the children.

1352
00:57:39,222 --> 00:57:42,225
No one would send their clothes
to an infected house.

1353
00:57:42,225 --> 00:57:43,560
I was about to tell you

1354
00:57:43,560 --> 00:57:46,396
not to come home
for your holidays, Mrs.

1355
00:57:46,396 --> 00:57:48,364
Evans wrote through a friend.

1356
00:57:48,364 --> 00:57:52,068
Then your mistress's letter came
saying you were leaving.

1357
00:57:52,068 --> 00:57:55,438
Oh, Katie,
I was so sad to hear that news.

1358
00:57:55,438 --> 00:57:58,141
Mrs. Bates
has been so good to you,

1359
00:57:58,141 --> 00:58:00,510
and far better to me than you
knew.

1360
00:58:00,510 --> 00:58:03,413
Many's the bundle of clean,
mended clothes

1361
00:58:03,413 --> 00:58:06,749
I've received from her,
along with kind letters

1362
00:58:06,749 --> 00:58:11,087
and Bible verses, encouraging me
to trust in God's goodness.

1363
00:58:11,087 --> 00:58:14,290
The last time she wrote,
she had such kind words

1364
00:58:14,290 --> 00:58:17,727
about you that I cried with joy,
she wrote.

1365
00:58:17,727 --> 00:58:21,631
Kate is a good girl,
very careful and hardworking,

1366
00:58:21,631 --> 00:58:23,466
and is improving every day

1367
00:58:23,466 --> 00:58:26,703
thanks to the teaching
and attention she's received.

1368
00:58:26,703 --> 00:58:29,372
A good servant is a blessing
to a family,

1369
00:58:29,372 --> 00:58:32,709
and a good daughter
is a treasure to her mother.

1370
00:58:32,709 --> 00:58:35,912
I believe Kate will be a comfort
to her employers

1371
00:58:35,912 --> 00:58:39,649
and a real help to you
and the children as they grow.

1372
00:58:39,649 --> 00:58:41,484
And now you're leaving
that home,

1373
00:58:41,484 --> 00:58:45,355
and that mistress who has done
more for you than I ever could.

1374
00:58:45,355 --> 00:58:46,723
And for what?

1375
00:58:46,723 --> 00:58:50,326
Just a bit of stubbornness
and disobedience to show

1376
00:58:50,326 --> 00:58:53,730
how independent you can be
by defying your mistress.

1377
00:58:53,730 --> 00:58:56,099
Oh, Katie,
you'll regret what you've done

1378
00:58:56,099 --> 00:58:58,801
when you see the difference
between hanging out in hall

1379
00:58:58,801 --> 00:59:01,170
and the place
you're going to in Manchester,

1380
00:59:01,170 --> 00:59:03,873
without even asking
your mother's advice.

1381
00:59:03,873 --> 00:59:06,442
I have enough worry
with the fever spreading,

1382
00:59:06,442 --> 00:59:09,412
but your actions troubled me
more than anything.

1383
00:59:09,412 --> 00:59:11,214
May God protect you.

1384
00:59:11,214 --> 00:59:14,217
Your loving mother, Sarah Evans.

1385
00:59:14,217 --> 00:59:17,554
Kate's tears flowed freely
as she read the letter.

1386
00:59:17,554 --> 00:59:20,490
She made two resolutions
and kept them.

1387
00:59:20,490 --> 00:59:24,060
The first was to send her mother
every penny she could spare,

1388
00:59:24,060 --> 00:59:26,262
keeping only enough
from her final wages

1389
00:59:26,262 --> 00:59:30,233
at Haddington to cover travel
and her own immediate needs.

1390
00:59:30,233 --> 00:59:32,201
Second resolution Kate made

1391
00:59:32,201 --> 00:59:34,103
was that
she would not leave her position

1392
00:59:34,103 --> 00:59:36,406
without telling her mistress
that she was sorry

1393
00:59:36,406 --> 00:59:39,809
for her disobedience
and asking for forgiveness.

1394
00:59:39,809 --> 00:59:43,112
And I will go right now,
she said to herself as she stood

1395
00:59:43,112 --> 00:59:46,115
in her room with her mother's
letter in hand.

1396
00:59:46,115 --> 00:59:48,885
If I wait, I might get scared
again.

1397
00:59:48,885 --> 00:59:50,019
Kate was right.

1398
00:59:50,019 --> 00:59:53,089
It's dangerous to delay
acting on a good resolution

1399
00:59:53,089 --> 00:59:56,159
when conscience shows us
that something ought to be done.

1400
00:59:56,159 --> 00:59:59,362
It's best to do it immediately,
for there is no time

1401
00:59:59,362 --> 01:00:00,463
like the present.

1402
01:00:00,463 --> 01:00:01,364
Kate went to Mrs.

1403
01:00:01,364 --> 01:00:04,467
Bates since morning room
and knocked on the door,

1404
01:00:04,467 --> 01:00:06,903
then entered
when her mistress called.

1405
01:00:06,903 --> 01:00:10,873
Her eyes were full of tears
and her heart heavy with genuine

1406
01:00:10,873 --> 01:00:14,344
sorrow for her ingratitude
and disobedience.

1407
01:00:14,344 --> 01:00:17,847
I wanted to tell you, ma'am,
that I'm so sorry, for her voice

1408
01:00:17,847 --> 01:00:20,883
faltered, and her lips trembled
as she broke down

1409
01:00:20,883 --> 01:00:22,352
and sobbed bitterly.

1410
01:00:22,352 --> 01:00:22,952
Mrs. Bates,

1411
01:00:22,952 --> 01:00:26,222
and thought Kate was referring
to the situation at home,

1412
01:00:26,222 --> 01:00:29,192
and despite her reason
to be displeased with the girl,

1413
01:00:29,192 --> 01:00:31,494
she sympathized
with her distress.

1414
01:00:31,494 --> 01:00:33,630
Don't try to repeat the sad
news, Kate.

1415
01:00:33,630 --> 01:00:34,864
I already know about it.

1416
01:00:34,864 --> 01:00:37,433
As the note came in, closed in
one addressed to me.

1417
01:00:37,433 --> 01:00:39,268
I'm truly sorry
for your poor mother.

1418
01:00:39,268 --> 01:00:40,570
And for you.

1419
01:00:40,570 --> 01:00:42,305
I wasn't going to speak about
that.

1420
01:00:42,305 --> 01:00:44,273
Mother said she told you.

1421
01:00:44,273 --> 01:00:47,210
I just wanted to tell you
that I know I've done wrong.

1422
01:00:47,210 --> 01:00:50,513
And I am ashamed and sorry
for having upset you.

1423
01:00:50,513 --> 01:00:53,916
You've been too good to me
and so kind to my mother.

1424
01:00:53,916 --> 01:00:55,518
Please forgive me before I go.

1425
01:00:55,518 --> 01:00:56,753
I really am sorry.

1426
01:00:56,753 --> 01:00:59,722
Kate hid her face in her apron
and cried like a child

1427
01:00:59,722 --> 01:01:03,026
as she stood waiting for her
mistress's response.

1428
01:01:03,026 --> 01:01:05,561
This is Bates and believed
Kate was sincere.

1429
01:01:05,561 --> 01:01:07,563
The girl had always been
truthful

1430
01:01:07,563 --> 01:01:09,932
and her straightforwardness
now convinced Mrs.

1431
01:01:09,932 --> 01:01:12,802
Bates and that her confession
was genuine.

1432
01:01:12,802 --> 01:01:14,303
I forgive you, Kate,

1433
01:01:14,303 --> 01:01:17,140
and I'm glad you've come to see
that you were wrong.

1434
01:01:17,140 --> 01:01:19,008
Of course we must part now.

1435
01:01:19,008 --> 01:01:21,911
But if you had come to me
earlier, like you have today,

1436
01:01:21,911 --> 01:01:24,547
and asked to stay,
I would have kept you.

1437
01:01:24,547 --> 01:01:26,282
I thought you had been misled.

1438
01:01:26,282 --> 01:01:29,585
I wanted to come,
but I was afraid.

1439
01:01:29,585 --> 01:01:31,788
I tried to do my work
as well as I could,

1440
01:01:31,788 --> 01:01:34,457
hoping you would notice
and maybe say something.

1441
01:01:34,457 --> 01:01:37,126
Or just
look as if you were pleased.

1442
01:01:37,126 --> 01:01:39,062
But you mostly looked
the other way,

1443
01:01:39,062 --> 01:01:41,597
and I thought
it would be useless to speak.

1444
01:01:41,597 --> 01:01:44,300
I knew I had twice
broken the rules, and I was sure

1445
01:01:44,300 --> 01:01:46,903
you would keep your word
and make me leave.

1446
01:01:46,903 --> 01:01:47,603
You always do.

1447
01:01:47,603 --> 01:01:49,005
Keep your word, ma'am.

1448
01:01:49,005 --> 01:01:52,175
Then cook scolded me, reminding
me how you'd taken me in

1449
01:01:52,175 --> 01:01:55,745
with nothing and paid me wages
when I wasn't worth them.

1450
01:01:55,745 --> 01:01:57,980
She said you'd clothed me
and taught me,

1451
01:01:57,980 --> 01:02:01,517
and now I was showing
how ungrateful I could be.

1452
01:02:01,517 --> 01:02:02,685
It was all true.

1453
01:02:02,685 --> 01:02:04,120
I know that.

1454
01:02:04,120 --> 01:02:06,389
But cook didn't
have to throw it in my face.

1455
01:02:06,389 --> 01:02:07,056
After that,

1456
01:02:07,056 --> 01:02:10,693
she hardly spoke to me,
and the others sided with her.

1457
01:02:10,693 --> 01:02:12,862
I felt like
there was nothing I could do,

1458
01:02:12,862 --> 01:02:15,431
and that I'd only be miserable
if I stayed.

1459
01:02:15,431 --> 01:02:18,201
The sooner I left, the better,
because I couldn't

1460
01:02:18,201 --> 01:02:21,404
stand being treated that way
without a friend to talk to.

1461
01:02:21,404 --> 01:02:24,140
And cook used to be so kind.

1462
01:02:24,140 --> 01:02:26,042
She meant to be kind, Kate,

1463
01:02:26,042 --> 01:02:28,711
but perhaps she didn't
go about it in the right way.

1464
01:02:28,711 --> 01:02:31,247
Some people think that
if what they say is true,

1465
01:02:31,247 --> 01:02:33,583
it doesn't matter
how they say it.

1466
01:02:33,583 --> 01:02:36,786
They forget that Jesus told us
to speak the truth in love.

1467
01:02:36,786 --> 01:02:38,988
I'm glad you've
admitted your fault, though.

1468
01:02:38,988 --> 01:02:41,357
And I'm sorry
you didn't come sooner.

1469
01:02:41,357 --> 01:02:44,026
I mistook your fear for pride
and thought you were determined

1470
01:02:44,026 --> 01:02:46,362
not to bend like Kirk.

1471
01:02:46,362 --> 01:02:49,298
I believed you were being proud
and ungrateful.

1472
01:02:49,298 --> 01:02:51,501
I'm truly glad
you've opened your heart to me

1473
01:02:51,501 --> 01:02:53,169
and shown me I was mistaken.

1474
01:02:53,169 --> 01:02:55,872
Kate smiled through her tears,

1475
01:02:55,872 --> 01:02:59,542
despite her earlier boasts
of independence and maturity.

1476
01:02:59,542 --> 01:03:02,311
She was still very much a child,

1477
01:03:02,311 --> 01:03:05,314
impulsive and easily led.

1478
01:03:05,314 --> 01:03:09,185
Now she eagerly poured out her
thanks for past kindnesses,

1479
01:03:09,185 --> 01:03:12,588
present forgiveness, and all the
help given to her mother.

1480
01:03:12,588 --> 01:03:14,991
If she could have known her
mistress's thoughts,

1481
01:03:14,991 --> 01:03:16,025
she would have seen Mrs.

1482
01:03:16,025 --> 01:03:18,127
Bates, and regretting
that she could not keep the

1483
01:03:18,127 --> 01:03:21,831
penitent girl and care for her,
as she had done before.

1484
01:03:21,831 --> 01:03:24,000
You know, Kate, that
you must keep your commitment

1485
01:03:24,000 --> 01:03:26,235
and go to Mrs. May. Brick.

1486
01:03:26,235 --> 01:03:27,069
Yes, ma'am.

1487
01:03:27,069 --> 01:03:29,071
It wouldn't be right to do
otherwise.

1488
01:03:29,071 --> 01:03:31,107
You will find life
in a large city

1489
01:03:31,107 --> 01:03:34,177
very different from your quiet
home here at Haddington.

1490
01:03:34,177 --> 01:03:37,146
But remember,
God will be no farther from you,

1491
01:03:37,146 --> 01:03:40,283
and you will need his guidance
and the help of His Holy Spirit

1492
01:03:40,283 --> 01:03:43,853
more than ever to show you
the right path.

1493
01:03:43,853 --> 01:03:45,655
Pray for it, Kate.

1494
01:03:45,655 --> 01:03:47,690
Ask God to forgive all your past

1495
01:03:47,690 --> 01:03:50,526
sins and failures
for the sake of our Savior

1496
01:03:50,526 --> 01:03:54,797
who died to purchase pardon
for us poor, helpless sinners.

1497
01:03:54,797 --> 01:03:58,434
He shed his blood to wash away
every stain of guilt and paid

1498
01:03:58,434 --> 01:04:02,038
the debt we could never pay
by any effort of our own.

1499
01:04:02,038 --> 01:04:05,041
Let's ask for his pardon
and blessing now.

1500
01:04:05,041 --> 01:04:09,278
Kneeling side by side, mistress
and maid joined in prayer.

1501
01:04:09,278 --> 01:04:11,914
Mrs. Bates
and spoke the petitions.

1502
01:04:11,914 --> 01:04:15,585
And Kate united her
heart and soul in the prayer.

1503
01:04:15,585 --> 01:04:18,421
Kate hadn't felt
so at peace in a long time,

1504
01:04:18,421 --> 01:04:21,290
as she did when she left her
mistress's room.

1505
01:04:21,290 --> 01:04:24,360
She carried with her
a deep sense of forgiveness,

1506
01:04:24,360 --> 01:04:25,328
knowing that Mrs.

1507
01:04:25,328 --> 01:04:28,231
Beatson would continue
to be a friend to her mother,

1508
01:04:28,231 --> 01:04:30,499
and that if she ever
faced difficulties,

1509
01:04:30,499 --> 01:04:33,436
she could write to her
former mistress for advice

1510
01:04:33,436 --> 01:04:37,440
which would be kindly given
sweet by this reconciliation.

1511
01:04:37,440 --> 01:04:40,276
Kate spoke a few kind words
to her old friend,

1512
01:04:40,276 --> 01:04:43,546
the cook, clearing away
the tension between them.

1513
01:04:43,546 --> 01:04:46,249
Cook was ready to meet her
half way,

1514
01:04:46,249 --> 01:04:48,317
likely having been enlightened
by Mrs.

1515
01:04:48,317 --> 01:04:50,820
Beatson about Kate's true
feelings.

1516
01:04:50,820 --> 01:04:53,522
I know I can be hasty,
and maybe I spoke sharper

1517
01:04:53,522 --> 01:04:55,925
than I should have,
but I meant to be kind.

1518
01:04:55,925 --> 01:04:57,927
And I'm sorry you're leaving.

1519
01:04:57,927 --> 01:05:00,129
Still, we'll hear
how you're getting on.

1520
01:05:00,129 --> 01:05:03,599
And if you're not happy, there's
no telling what could happen.

1521
01:05:03,599 --> 01:05:05,635
The mistress is always
better than her word,

1522
01:05:05,635 --> 01:05:07,870
even though her word is good
enough.

1523
01:05:07,870 --> 01:05:09,572
Kate knew this well.

1524
01:05:09,572 --> 01:05:11,908
Her time at Haddington
had shown her that Mrs.

1525
01:05:11,908 --> 01:05:15,144
Bates, and had done more for her
than she had ever promised,

1526
01:05:15,144 --> 01:05:18,147
and she had helped her mother
in countless ways, too.

1527
01:05:18,147 --> 01:05:20,583
I'll never have
another mistress like her.

1528
01:05:20,583 --> 01:05:22,285
And if I wanted to come back,

1529
01:05:22,285 --> 01:05:24,987
I know there wouldn't
be an opening for me.

1530
01:05:24,987 --> 01:05:28,958
All the servants here stay on
except for Fanny Ellis.

1531
01:05:28,958 --> 01:05:30,960
They knew how fortunate
they were.

1532
01:05:30,960 --> 01:05:34,163
The last days passed
more quickly than she expected,

1533
01:05:34,163 --> 01:05:37,733
and soon the final hour arrived
when Kate had to say

1534
01:05:37,733 --> 01:05:38,868
her goodbyes.

1535
01:05:38,868 --> 01:05:41,637
Her farewells
were interrupted by tears,

1536
01:05:41,637 --> 01:05:44,840
and it felt as if a shadow
had fallen over her as she lost

1537
01:05:44,840 --> 01:05:47,610
sight of the kind faces
and waving handkerchiefs

1538
01:05:47,610 --> 01:05:50,880
of her old companions,
and a bend in the road

1539
01:05:50,880 --> 01:05:53,049
shut out her view of Harrington
Hall.

1540
01:05:53,049 --> 01:05:56,619
Still she was determined
to do her best in her new place.

1541
01:05:56,619 --> 01:05:59,255
She had received another letter
from her mother and Mrs.

1542
01:05:59,255 --> 01:06:02,391
Bates, and had also
written to her so kindly.

1543
01:06:02,391 --> 01:06:03,592
Kate had left Harrington

1544
01:06:03,592 --> 01:06:06,195
in peace
with goodwill toward everyone,

1545
01:06:06,195 --> 01:06:07,630
and that was something

1546
01:06:07,630 --> 01:06:11,200
she resolved to look forward
and upward, seeking God's help

1547
01:06:11,200 --> 01:06:13,736
and not make herself
unfit for her new work.

1548
01:06:13,736 --> 01:06:18,040
By dwelling
on what couldn't be changed.

1549
01:06:18,040 --> 01:06:19,442
Chapter five.

1550
01:06:19,442 --> 01:06:22,945
The first night in a new home,

1551
01:06:22,945 --> 01:06:26,148
Mrs. Batson had thoughtfully
arranged for Kate

1552
01:06:26,148 --> 01:06:29,118
to arrive at her new position
during daylight.

1553
01:06:29,118 --> 01:06:32,254
As Kate had little experience
with travel,

1554
01:06:32,254 --> 01:06:34,924
her yearly round trip
from Haddington to her village

1555
01:06:34,924 --> 01:06:37,927
home was the extent of her
journeys.

1556
01:06:37,927 --> 01:06:40,329
Haight had sent word
to Fanny Ellis that she would

1557
01:06:40,329 --> 01:06:43,632
reach Victoria Station at 4:00,
and at half

1558
01:06:43,632 --> 01:06:48,070
hoped to see Fanny's familiar
face welcoming her, but know

1559
01:06:48,070 --> 01:06:50,439
all the faces were unfamiliar.

1560
01:06:50,439 --> 01:06:53,642
And Kate found herself
feeling confused and alone

1561
01:06:53,642 --> 01:06:56,312
as she stepped into the midst
of the rushing crowd.

1562
01:06:56,312 --> 01:06:59,515
The drive to her new place
was longer than she expected,

1563
01:06:59,515 --> 01:07:02,418
and the cab fare seemed a lot,
especially now

1564
01:07:02,418 --> 01:07:06,322
that her mother situation
made every penny more precious.

1565
01:07:06,322 --> 01:07:09,091
Pete had once dreamed
about life in the city,

1566
01:07:09,091 --> 01:07:11,327
imagining it would be exciting
to be somewhere

1567
01:07:11,327 --> 01:07:14,296
with so much to see,
and where the same few faces

1568
01:07:14,296 --> 01:07:16,932
wouldn't
constantly surround her.

1569
01:07:16,932 --> 01:07:18,067
At Haddington,

1570
01:07:18,067 --> 01:07:21,537
everyone knew everyone else,
and each day passed

1571
01:07:21,537 --> 01:07:25,474
much like the last, following
the same routine of duties.

1572
01:07:25,474 --> 01:07:28,444
Fanny Ellis had often said
she'd rather be buried alive

1573
01:07:28,444 --> 01:07:29,478
than stay there.

1574
01:07:29,478 --> 01:07:31,814
She thought the quiet country
life might suit

1575
01:07:31,814 --> 01:07:34,550
mistresses who could go away
whenever they pleased,

1576
01:07:34,550 --> 01:07:37,253
but not servants
who wanted more excitement.

1577
01:07:37,253 --> 01:07:39,288
Yet before meeting Fanny,

1578
01:07:39,288 --> 01:07:42,558
Kate had been more than content,
often thanking God for her

1579
01:07:42,558 --> 01:07:46,195
good home and a kind mistress,
as Kate wrote to her new place

1580
01:07:46,195 --> 01:07:46,962
of service.

1581
01:07:46,962 --> 01:07:50,933
She wasn't exactly thrilled by
the sight she passed everywhere.

1582
01:07:50,933 --> 01:07:53,035
The buildings were blackened
by smoke

1583
01:07:53,035 --> 01:07:55,571
and the sky seemed gray
rather than blue,

1584
01:07:55,571 --> 01:07:59,442
even though the sun was shining
brightly on this hot day.

1585
01:07:59,442 --> 01:08:02,912
When she stepped out of the cab,
she noticed that the leaves,

1586
01:08:02,912 --> 01:08:05,414
instead of being a vibrant green
like those at

1587
01:08:05,414 --> 01:08:08,451
Harrington, were covered
with a black coating.

1588
01:08:08,451 --> 01:08:12,054
And yet, she wasn't
even in the heart of the city.

1589
01:08:12,054 --> 01:08:14,890
Her new home seemed to be
in a good neighborhood,

1590
01:08:14,890 --> 01:08:18,561
with detached houses
surrounded by some open space.

1591
01:08:18,561 --> 01:08:21,664
At least I'll be away from the
terrible noise of the streets.

1592
01:08:21,664 --> 01:08:25,034
It overwhelmed me and made me
long to be back at Harrington.

1593
01:08:25,034 --> 01:08:28,304
She was met at the door
by another servant who said,

1594
01:08:28,304 --> 01:08:30,573
I suppose you're
the new housemaid. Waitress?

1595
01:08:30,573 --> 01:08:31,941
I'm glad you've arrived on time,

1596
01:08:31,941 --> 01:08:33,542
because with one
less pair of hands,

1597
01:08:33,542 --> 01:08:35,377
we've been a bit
all over the place.

1598
01:08:35,377 --> 01:08:37,313
I'll help you upstairs
with your things.

1599
01:08:37,313 --> 01:08:38,180
They call you Kate.

1600
01:08:38,180 --> 01:08:38,981
Don't they?

1601
01:08:38,981 --> 01:08:41,817
Yes. Well, I'm Sarah.

1602
01:08:41,817 --> 01:08:43,619
I'm the waitress
in housemaid number one.

1603
01:08:43,619 --> 01:08:44,920
And your housemaid number two.

1604
01:08:44,920 --> 01:08:46,322
Just so you know.

1605
01:08:46,322 --> 01:08:48,257
Mrs. May, Maverick mentioned
you haven't done

1606
01:08:48,257 --> 01:08:50,025
much waiting before,
but she's arranged

1607
01:08:50,025 --> 01:08:52,128
for you to assist me
like the last one did.

1608
01:08:52,128 --> 01:08:53,229
This is our room.

1609
01:08:53,229 --> 01:08:56,432
The room was up a long flight
of stairs and seemed large

1610
01:08:56,432 --> 01:08:59,468
and desolate to Kate, though
there were three beds in it,

1611
01:08:59,468 --> 01:09:02,071
so different from the cozy room
she had left

1612
01:09:02,071 --> 01:09:05,241
that morning to someone else
sleep here besides me.

1613
01:09:05,241 --> 01:09:08,911
Kate looked around, noting
the absence of drawers or proper

1614
01:09:08,911 --> 01:09:13,349
storage with only the servants
boxes to hold their clothes.

1615
01:09:13,349 --> 01:09:16,152
Of course you didn't expect
a room to yourself, did you?

1616
01:09:16,152 --> 01:09:18,420
I've never had one
in a city job.

1617
01:09:18,420 --> 01:09:19,889
I had one at Harrington Hall,

1618
01:09:19,889 --> 01:09:21,524
the only place I've worked
before.

1619
01:09:21,524 --> 01:09:23,459
It was such a nice little room.

1620
01:09:23,459 --> 01:09:24,894
You were lucky then.

1621
01:09:24,894 --> 01:09:26,729
I'm surprised you left.

1622
01:09:26,729 --> 01:09:28,831
Well,
this isn't a nice little room.

1623
01:09:28,831 --> 01:09:31,066
Or a nice big one,
for that matter.

1624
01:09:31,066 --> 01:09:32,568
There's only scraps of carpet.

1625
01:09:32,568 --> 01:09:34,303
Just enough to step on.

1626
01:09:34,303 --> 01:09:36,305
And three chairs,
one for each of us.

1627
01:09:36,305 --> 01:09:38,107
Cook. You and me.

1628
01:09:38,107 --> 01:09:39,675
We all share this room.

1629
01:09:39,675 --> 01:09:41,610
The nurses downstairs
with the children.

1630
01:09:41,610 --> 01:09:42,811
This place in a box room.

1631
01:09:42,811 --> 01:09:44,680
Cover
the whole top of the house.

1632
01:09:44,680 --> 01:09:45,948
At least we're far from Mrs.

1633
01:09:45,948 --> 01:09:46,982
May. Bricks way up here.

1634
01:09:46,982 --> 01:09:48,150
Which is a relief,

1635
01:09:48,150 --> 01:09:50,986
though it's gloomy in the summer
and freezing in the winter.

1636
01:09:50,986 --> 01:09:52,855
It does seem rather bare.

1637
01:09:52,855 --> 01:09:54,790
Kate had noticed the fine
furniture

1638
01:09:54,790 --> 01:09:58,027
and abundance of ornaments
in the lower part of the house.

1639
01:09:58,027 --> 01:09:59,762
I can tell what you're thinking.

1640
01:09:59,762 --> 01:10:01,397
You didn't
shut your eyes coming up,

1641
01:10:01,397 --> 01:10:02,932
and now you're wondering
why they couldn't

1642
01:10:02,932 --> 01:10:04,800
have spared
a few things from downstairs

1643
01:10:04,800 --> 01:10:07,770
and given us some proper drawers
and furniture up here.

1644
01:10:07,770 --> 01:10:09,271
We've got to hang our gowns on

1645
01:10:09,271 --> 01:10:10,039
nails wherever

1646
01:10:10,039 --> 01:10:11,607
we can find space,
and cover them

1647
01:10:11,607 --> 01:10:13,876
with old morning frocks
to keep the dust off.

1648
01:10:13,876 --> 01:10:16,845
And Manchester
dust is black, I tell you.

1649
01:10:16,845 --> 01:10:18,814
Everything
looked so dingy to me.

1650
01:10:18,814 --> 01:10:20,049
Coming from a bright country

1651
01:10:20,049 --> 01:10:22,851
place where there's no smoke
and big chimneys.

1652
01:10:22,851 --> 01:10:24,753
You'll get used to it
soon enough.

1653
01:10:24,753 --> 01:10:27,957
Sarah seemed pleased
to share her grievances, perhaps

1654
01:10:27,957 --> 01:10:31,193
exaggerating them a little
for the new girl's benefit.

1655
01:10:31,193 --> 01:10:33,028
You'd better hurry up
and get your things sorted

1656
01:10:33,028 --> 01:10:34,563
so you can come help me.

1657
01:10:34,563 --> 01:10:36,131
This is your bed.

1658
01:10:36,131 --> 01:10:38,500
You can lay your gowns on it
for now until you've got time

1659
01:10:38,500 --> 01:10:39,702
to hang them up.

1660
01:10:39,702 --> 01:10:42,004
I've got to run or I'll fall
behind.

1661
01:10:42,004 --> 01:10:44,473
We've got company for dinner,
and I believe the missus is

1662
01:10:44,473 --> 01:10:46,742
home.
I'll let her know you're here.

1663
01:10:46,742 --> 01:10:47,343
Don't worry.

1664
01:10:47,343 --> 01:10:49,178
She won't bother to come up
this far.

1665
01:10:49,178 --> 01:10:51,347
She rarely sees this place.

1666
01:10:51,347 --> 01:10:52,548
I wish she would, though.

1667
01:10:52,548 --> 01:10:54,216
Maybe then
she'd notice the difference

1668
01:10:54,216 --> 01:10:56,585
and make things
a bit better for us servants.

1669
01:10:56,585 --> 01:11:00,923
Sarah hurried off, and Kate
wasted no time following her.

1670
01:11:00,923 --> 01:11:02,157
She expected Mrs.

1671
01:11:02,157 --> 01:11:05,661
Maverick would want to speak
with her at Haddington.

1672
01:11:05,661 --> 01:11:07,863
A new servant
was always called into Mrs.

1673
01:11:07,863 --> 01:11:11,567
Bates's room, where she'd offer
a few words of welcome,

1674
01:11:11,567 --> 01:11:15,304
go over the duties
and explain the household rules.

1675
01:11:15,304 --> 01:11:17,906
Leaving
no room for misunderstanding.

1676
01:11:17,906 --> 01:11:19,108
Newcomers were encouraged

1677
01:11:19,108 --> 01:11:21,777
to go to their mistress
in times of difficulty.

1678
01:11:21,777 --> 01:11:24,813
Reassured that they would find
not just an employer,

1679
01:11:24,813 --> 01:11:27,983
but a friend ready to offer
advice and help

1680
01:11:27,983 --> 01:11:30,252
if they strove to do
what was right.

1681
01:11:30,252 --> 01:11:31,553
Chapter five.

1682
01:11:31,553 --> 01:11:34,757
The first night in a new home,
Kate could clearly remember

1683
01:11:34,757 --> 01:11:37,459
her own arrival
at Harrington Hall.

1684
01:11:37,459 --> 01:11:40,262
An untrained, frightened girl,
barely able

1685
01:11:40,262 --> 01:11:43,232
to answer when asked a question
she could picture Mrs.

1686
01:11:43,232 --> 01:11:46,435
Bates and kind face and recall
how she inquired after

1687
01:11:46,435 --> 01:11:49,938
Kate's mother and the family
she had left behind.

1688
01:11:49,938 --> 01:11:51,240
Kate remembered how Mrs.

1689
01:11:51,240 --> 01:11:53,175
Bates and knelt beside her,

1690
01:11:53,175 --> 01:11:55,377
and asked
God to bless her arrival

1691
01:11:55,377 --> 01:11:57,579
that it might be of benefit
to herself, her

1692
01:11:57,579 --> 01:12:01,083
distant loved ones
and all in the household.

1693
01:12:01,083 --> 01:12:04,153
He seemed to hear again
her former mistress's prayer

1694
01:12:04,153 --> 01:12:06,055
that God's Holy Spirit,

1695
01:12:06,055 --> 01:12:08,524
the only unfailing
guide and teacher,

1696
01:12:08,524 --> 01:12:11,193
would lead her in the right path
and give her strength

1697
01:12:11,193 --> 01:12:12,628
for the duties ahead.

1698
01:12:12,628 --> 01:12:15,998
The memory brought tears
to Kate's eyes, and surely

1699
01:12:15,998 --> 01:12:18,701
it was the Holy Spirit's
enlightenment that now made her

1700
01:12:18,701 --> 01:12:22,404
see her in gratitude toward her
best earthly friends,

1701
01:12:22,404 --> 01:12:25,841
her lack of thought for her
mother and her ungratefulness,

1702
01:12:25,841 --> 01:12:27,876
for the peaceful life
God had given her.

1703
01:12:27,876 --> 01:12:29,445
These past three years.

1704
01:12:29,445 --> 01:12:32,014
She couldn't help
but take a few moments to kneel

1705
01:12:32,014 --> 01:12:35,484
in the bare, desolate room,
repeating the prayer Mrs.

1706
01:12:35,484 --> 01:12:38,620
Bates and had
once offered on her behalf.

1707
01:12:38,620 --> 01:12:41,724
She cried
for forgiveness in Jesus name

1708
01:12:41,724 --> 01:12:44,526
and thanked
God for her safe journey.

1709
01:12:44,526 --> 01:12:47,162
Feeling a bit brighter
and more at peace,

1710
01:12:47,162 --> 01:12:50,299
she went downstairs
to begin her new duties.

1711
01:12:50,299 --> 01:12:53,569
Sarah noticed the traces
of tears on Kate's cheeks,

1712
01:12:53,569 --> 01:12:54,169
and although she

1713
01:12:54,169 --> 01:12:57,606
was prone to gossip,
she was also good natured.

1714
01:12:57,606 --> 01:12:59,742
She half regretted
having said anything

1715
01:12:59,742 --> 01:13:01,977
that might have frightened
the newcomer.

1716
01:13:01,977 --> 01:13:03,679
Don't get too downhearted.

1717
01:13:03,679 --> 01:13:05,180
There are worse places
than this.

1718
01:13:05,180 --> 01:13:08,183
Trust me, I've been here
for over a year now.

1719
01:13:08,183 --> 01:13:10,386
The food's good
and there's plenty of it.

1720
01:13:10,386 --> 01:13:11,754
Masters, Rich and Mrs.

1721
01:13:11,754 --> 01:13:14,490
May has money of her own,
and she needs it.

1722
01:13:14,490 --> 01:13:17,526
Considering all the fads
and finery in this house.

1723
01:13:17,526 --> 01:13:20,329
She doesn't trouble us
much as long as the work's done.

1724
01:13:20,329 --> 01:13:21,296
We're kept busy.

1725
01:13:21,296 --> 01:13:22,431
No mistake about that.

1726
01:13:22,431 --> 01:13:24,600
With all the company
they entertain.

1727
01:13:24,600 --> 01:13:26,602
But there's
no penny pinching here.

1728
01:13:26,602 --> 01:13:28,971
And when you have a holiday,
it's your own day.

1729
01:13:28,971 --> 01:13:32,474
None of that poking and prying
like you had in your old place.

1730
01:13:32,474 --> 01:13:34,276
You were right not to stand it.

1731
01:13:34,276 --> 01:13:37,279
I wouldn't want to be treated
like a child during my time off.

1732
01:13:37,279 --> 01:13:39,648
Even for the best
mistress in the world.

1733
01:13:39,648 --> 01:13:42,951
The words were kindly meant,
and Kate forced a smile

1734
01:13:42,951 --> 01:13:44,253
and thanked Sarah.

1735
01:13:44,253 --> 01:13:45,654
But she was already starting

1736
01:13:45,654 --> 01:13:48,657
to realize that a mistress
who didn't concern herself

1737
01:13:48,657 --> 01:13:52,261
with the goings and comings
of a young girl far from home,

1738
01:13:52,261 --> 01:13:54,696
was not the type of friend
she could turn to

1739
01:13:54,696 --> 01:13:55,898
in times of trouble,

1740
01:13:55,898 --> 01:13:56,432
nor which

1741
01:13:56,432 --> 01:13:59,301
she likely offered much sympathy
in times of sickness.

1742
01:13:59,301 --> 01:14:00,602
Kate didn't see Mrs.

1743
01:14:00,602 --> 01:14:02,037
May brick until dinner,

1744
01:14:02,037 --> 01:14:03,739
where her role
was mostly limited

1745
01:14:03,739 --> 01:14:05,040
to fetching and carrying,

1746
01:14:05,040 --> 01:14:07,142
as there were hired helpers
for the evening.

1747
01:14:07,142 --> 01:14:08,143
It was very late

1748
01:14:08,143 --> 01:14:11,713
when she finally returned to her
room, exhausted in both body

1749
01:14:11,713 --> 01:14:15,617
and mind from the anxious
thoughts, the long journey

1750
01:14:15,617 --> 01:14:19,321
and the new demands of the day
before she could lie down.

1751
01:14:19,321 --> 01:14:22,491
She had to put her clothes in
some kind of order,

1752
01:14:22,491 --> 01:14:24,793
though
she barely knew where to start.

1753
01:14:24,793 --> 01:14:27,095
She wondered how she would
maintain the tidy

1754
01:14:27,095 --> 01:14:30,098
habits her former
mistress had taught her.

1755
01:14:30,098 --> 01:14:30,899
There were no spare

1756
01:14:30,899 --> 01:14:33,001
nails for her gowns,
and she realized

1757
01:14:33,001 --> 01:14:33,368
that when the

1758
01:14:33,368 --> 01:14:37,206
previous housemaid had left,
the others had claimed them.

1759
01:14:37,206 --> 01:14:39,308
The room was cluttered
with clothes

1760
01:14:39,308 --> 01:14:42,478
both clean and soiled,
scattered in corners.

1761
01:14:42,478 --> 01:14:44,613
The Untidiness
weighed heavily on Kate,

1762
01:14:44,613 --> 01:14:46,715
making her feel
even more downcast.

1763
01:14:46,715 --> 01:14:48,917
The cook and Sarah
were already asleep

1764
01:14:48,917 --> 01:14:51,220
by the time she extinguished
the gas.

1765
01:14:51,220 --> 01:14:53,489
Sarah had said good night
and added,

1766
01:14:53,489 --> 01:14:55,757
I'll help you tidy up tomorrow
and we'll get some more nails

1767
01:14:55,757 --> 01:14:56,658
in the wall.

1768
01:14:56,658 --> 01:14:58,227
It's too late for that now.

1769
01:14:58,227 --> 01:14:59,928
I'm dead tired.

1770
01:14:59,928 --> 01:15:01,263
Too tired for prayer.

1771
01:15:01,263 --> 01:15:05,033
It seemed, for neither the cook
nor Sarah knelt before bed.

1772
01:15:05,033 --> 01:15:08,537
Kate moved quietly,
and once the light was out,

1773
01:15:08,537 --> 01:15:11,907
she knelt to pray, perhaps
with a deeper sense of need

1774
01:15:11,907 --> 01:15:13,942
than ever before.

1775
01:15:13,942 --> 01:15:15,110
Alone,

1776
01:15:15,110 --> 01:15:17,913
far from those
she could call true friends,

1777
01:15:17,913 --> 01:15:20,282
she realized for the first time
what a blessing

1778
01:15:20,282 --> 01:15:23,385
it is that our father in heaven
is always near,

1779
01:15:23,385 --> 01:15:25,787
always ready to listen
and answer.

1780
01:15:25,787 --> 01:15:28,724
Even his ungrateful
and disobedient children,

1781
01:15:28,724 --> 01:15:31,560
when they come to him
with Jesus name on their lips,

1782
01:15:31,560 --> 01:15:35,731
trusting in his love life
and sacrifice for sinners.

1783
01:15:35,731 --> 01:15:38,400
After she lay down, Kate
couldn't sleep.

1784
01:15:38,400 --> 01:15:42,070
Though she desperately needed
rest, the bed had been hastily

1785
01:15:42,070 --> 01:15:44,940
made with the bedding
thrown on carelessly.

1786
01:15:44,940 --> 01:15:48,377
Servants don't always look after
each other's comfort, often

1787
01:15:48,377 --> 01:15:52,080
thinking if she doesn't like it,
she can fix it herself.

1788
01:15:52,080 --> 01:15:55,050
A common attitude among those
working under the same roof.

1789
01:15:55,050 --> 01:15:59,621
Kate's bed was hard and lumpy,
the bedding uneven and rumpled,

1790
01:15:59,621 --> 01:16:02,257
with two thirds of it
hanging off one side

1791
01:16:02,257 --> 01:16:05,093
while the other side
barely covered the mattress.

1792
01:16:05,093 --> 01:16:08,597
She would fix these things
herself tomorrow, but for now,

1793
01:16:08,597 --> 01:16:11,600
the discomfort, along with her
troubled thoughts,

1794
01:16:11,600 --> 01:16:14,970
kept her from falling into
the much needed sleep.

1795
01:16:14,970 --> 01:16:18,607
As she lay there,
wakeful yet exhausted,

1796
01:16:18,607 --> 01:16:21,009
she felt a deep sense
of gratitude to Mrs.

1797
01:16:21,009 --> 01:16:24,046
Beatson for encouraging her
to memorize scripture

1798
01:16:24,046 --> 01:16:25,581
and for allowing her to join

1799
01:16:25,581 --> 01:16:28,984
in the simple Bible lessons
she gave her children.

1800
01:16:28,984 --> 01:16:31,353
When Kate
first arrived at Haddington,

1801
01:16:31,353 --> 01:16:32,821
she was as ignorant of these

1802
01:16:32,821 --> 01:16:36,458
precious truths as she was
of her household duties.

1803
01:16:36,458 --> 01:16:38,627
She owed everything she had
learned,

1804
01:16:38,627 --> 01:16:42,397
both practical and spiritual,
to her good mistress.

1805
01:16:42,397 --> 01:16:44,666
Scriptures
now held more meaning for her

1806
01:16:44,666 --> 01:16:46,535
than they ever had before.

1807
01:16:46,535 --> 01:16:48,870
The Lord is nigh unto all them

1808
01:16:48,870 --> 01:16:52,374
that call upon him, to all that
call upon him in truth.

1809
01:16:52,374 --> 01:16:56,578
Call upon me in the day
of trouble I will deliver thee.

1810
01:16:56,578 --> 01:16:58,981
Were among the verses
that came to her mind,

1811
01:16:58,981 --> 01:17:00,415
bringing her comfort.

1812
01:17:00,415 --> 01:17:02,017
And she could accept that
comfort

1813
01:17:02,017 --> 01:17:03,752
despite feeling unworthy,

1814
01:17:03,752 --> 01:17:06,855
because her sorrow for her past
willfulness was genuine,

1815
01:17:06,855 --> 01:17:11,927
and she now earnestly
desired guidance from above.

1816
01:17:11,927 --> 01:17:16,398
Chapter six Kate Sunday out.

1817
01:17:16,398 --> 01:17:18,300
It was late the next morning
when Mrs.

1818
01:17:18,300 --> 01:17:20,469
May brick
made her first appearance.

1819
01:17:20,469 --> 01:17:23,038
Sarah had taken her breakfast
upstairs,

1820
01:17:23,038 --> 01:17:26,141
but afterward she said to Kate,
it'll be your job

1821
01:17:26,141 --> 01:17:28,076
to bring breakfast
to the bedrooms when needed.

1822
01:17:28,076 --> 01:17:30,879
But mistress asked me to do it
this time since you're new.

1823
01:17:30,879 --> 01:17:32,514
She seems to like you, though.

1824
01:17:32,514 --> 01:17:35,217
She told me the new housemaid
is one of the neatest

1825
01:17:35,217 --> 01:17:37,519
looking girls
I've seen in a long time.

1826
01:17:37,519 --> 01:17:40,889
Kate was glad to have made
a good first impression.

1827
01:17:40,889 --> 01:17:42,324
Later, when Mrs.

1828
01:17:42,324 --> 01:17:44,292
May break
past her on the landing,

1829
01:17:44,292 --> 01:17:46,595
she said a few casual words.

1830
01:17:46,595 --> 01:17:49,431
Sarah will show you
where everything is and tell you

1831
01:17:49,431 --> 01:17:53,168
how she and the housemaid
have always divided the work.

1832
01:17:53,168 --> 01:17:55,537
If there's anything special
you need to ask,

1833
01:17:55,537 --> 01:17:57,272
you can go to the nurse.

1834
01:17:57,272 --> 01:17:59,241
She'll explain it
as well as I could.

1835
01:17:59,241 --> 01:18:00,575
Maybe even better.

1836
01:18:00,575 --> 01:18:02,310
Before Kate could say a word.

1837
01:18:02,310 --> 01:18:06,181
Mrs. May brick had swept past
her, heading to her carriage,

1838
01:18:06,181 --> 01:18:08,884
which had already been waiting
for nearly an hour.

1839
01:18:08,884 --> 01:18:11,887
From Sarah, Kate
learned all about the household.

1840
01:18:11,887 --> 01:18:12,554
There were six

1841
01:18:12,554 --> 01:18:16,591
female servants in total, though
only four slept in the house.

1842
01:18:16,591 --> 01:18:19,695
Two young girls, the coachman
and daughters, worked

1843
01:18:19,695 --> 01:18:23,298
as kitchen maid and under nurse,
but they went home at night.

1844
01:18:23,298 --> 01:18:25,901
The nurse took care
of nursery meals and answered

1845
01:18:25,901 --> 01:18:29,271
to the head nurse, a reliable
and trustworthy woman.

1846
01:18:29,271 --> 01:18:31,473
As Sarah acknowledged, Mrs.

1847
01:18:31,473 --> 01:18:34,242
May Brook doesn't spend
much time with the children.

1848
01:18:34,242 --> 01:18:36,978
She visits them in the morning
and sometimes later,

1849
01:18:36,978 --> 01:18:39,581
and she buys them
loads of fancy clothes.

1850
01:18:39,581 --> 01:18:41,917
Though the eldest is only six
and the other three

1851
01:18:41,917 --> 01:18:44,853
are even younger,
she's very proud of how pretty

1852
01:18:44,853 --> 01:18:47,622
they are, and they are sweet
little things,

1853
01:18:47,622 --> 01:18:50,792
but she does the next best thing
to caring for them herself.

1854
01:18:50,792 --> 01:18:52,661
She hired someone who does.

1855
01:18:52,661 --> 01:18:54,730
Mrs. Ashley
is a really good woman

1856
01:18:54,730 --> 01:18:57,099
and no children are better
looked after.

1857
01:18:57,099 --> 01:18:59,000
All the laundry is sent out to.

1858
01:18:59,000 --> 01:19:01,036
Kate's expressions
seemed to suggest

1859
01:19:01,036 --> 01:19:05,040
that there wasn't much work
to do, and Sarah noticed.

1860
01:19:05,040 --> 01:19:06,975
I bet you're thinking
we've got it easy here.

1861
01:19:06,975 --> 01:19:08,410
But don't fool yourself.

1862
01:19:08,410 --> 01:19:10,078
When a house is stuffed
with trinkets

1863
01:19:10,078 --> 01:19:11,346
till you can hardly move,

1864
01:19:11,346 --> 01:19:14,015
there's plenty of work
just to keep them dusted.

1865
01:19:14,015 --> 01:19:15,617
And there's no order
to anything.

1866
01:19:15,617 --> 01:19:17,219
Dinner's never at the same time.

1867
01:19:17,219 --> 01:19:18,820
Two days in a row.
And you never know

1868
01:19:18,820 --> 01:19:20,789
when breakfast
will be cleared away.

1869
01:19:20,789 --> 01:19:21,723
Or whether Mrs.

1870
01:19:21,723 --> 01:19:22,257
May brick

1871
01:19:22,257 --> 01:19:26,027
will take it upstairs or down,
or when you'll get to bed.

1872
01:19:26,027 --> 01:19:29,464
The master lunch is in the city,
but usually dines at home,

1873
01:19:29,464 --> 01:19:31,633
and we almost
always have company on Sundays.

1874
01:19:31,633 --> 01:19:34,269
That's why we only get
one Sunday off in three.

1875
01:19:34,269 --> 01:19:35,203
But don't the Master

1876
01:19:35,203 --> 01:19:38,073
and mistress go to church
or anywhere on Sundays?

1877
01:19:38,073 --> 01:19:41,276
Sometimes, but it's as irregular
as everything else here.

1878
01:19:41,276 --> 01:19:43,812
So I suppose
you don't have family prayers,

1879
01:19:43,812 --> 01:19:46,715
and on other Sundays you don't
get a chance to go to church,

1880
01:19:46,715 --> 01:19:48,083
not even once.

1881
01:19:48,083 --> 01:19:49,618
Well, you are a strange one.

1882
01:19:49,618 --> 01:19:52,154
Sarah burst into laughter,
wiping her

1883
01:19:52,154 --> 01:19:54,990
eyes afterward,
teasing and mocking her.

1884
01:19:54,990 --> 01:19:57,492
She said, why, I thought
you left your last place.

1885
01:19:57,492 --> 01:20:00,195
Because you had too many prayers
and too much church going.

1886
01:20:00,195 --> 01:20:01,730
Fanny Alice said so.

1887
01:20:01,730 --> 01:20:03,165
And here you are
first thing, asking

1888
01:20:03,165 --> 01:20:04,933
if you can go to church
once on Sunday,

1889
01:20:04,933 --> 01:20:06,768
and if we have prayers
in the house.

1890
01:20:06,768 --> 01:20:09,204
Sorry to disappoint you,
but you'll have to get by

1891
01:20:09,204 --> 01:20:12,040
without family Bible
readings and regular church.

1892
01:20:12,040 --> 01:20:14,176
And when your Sunday outcomes,
I think you'll be glad

1893
01:20:14,176 --> 01:20:16,478
to get as much fun out of it
as you can.

1894
01:20:16,478 --> 01:20:19,981
Kate's face flushed as
she listened to Sarah's teasing,

1895
01:20:19,981 --> 01:20:22,951
but she resisted the temptation
to snap back.

1896
01:20:22,951 --> 01:20:26,555
Instead, she gathered her
courage and said, I'm afraid

1897
01:20:26,555 --> 01:20:27,722
I was very foolish

1898
01:20:27,722 --> 01:20:30,325
and didn't know
how to appreciate the privileges

1899
01:20:30,325 --> 01:20:34,196
I had or the kindness
I received at my last place.

1900
01:20:34,196 --> 01:20:34,563
I didn't

1901
01:20:34,563 --> 01:20:37,365
like the idea of being
forced to go to church, but

1902
01:20:37,365 --> 01:20:40,869
I never thought much about it
until Fanny put it in my head.

1903
01:20:40,869 --> 01:20:44,339
Now I'm sure I'll miss my quiet
Sundays.

1904
01:20:44,339 --> 01:20:46,308
It seems a dreadful long time
to wait

1905
01:20:46,308 --> 01:20:48,443
three weeks for a chance to go,

1906
01:20:48,443 --> 01:20:51,513
but I don't think I'll stay away
when I get the opportunity.

1907
01:20:51,513 --> 01:20:54,749
Sarah wasted no time repeating
this conversation to Fanny.

1908
01:20:54,749 --> 01:20:57,686
Alice and the two girls
laughed over it together.

1909
01:20:57,686 --> 01:21:00,121
I told you, she's weak as water.

1910
01:21:00,121 --> 01:21:02,557
You can twist her
around your finger.

1911
01:21:02,557 --> 01:21:04,092
Before I got to Harrington.

1912
01:21:04,092 --> 01:21:06,361
She was as meek as a mouse.

1913
01:21:06,361 --> 01:21:08,697
She didn't even realize
she was being treated

1914
01:21:08,697 --> 01:21:12,334
like a child until I pointed out
the leading strings.

1915
01:21:12,334 --> 01:21:15,270
Then she flipped right around
and agreed with everything

1916
01:21:15,270 --> 01:21:16,137
I said.

1917
01:21:16,137 --> 01:21:18,073
She got notice because of it,

1918
01:21:18,073 --> 01:21:20,408
and since I'd sort of
dragged her into trouble,

1919
01:21:20,408 --> 01:21:22,711
I figured
I ought to get her out of it.

1920
01:21:22,711 --> 01:21:24,145
Now she's in another place.

1921
01:21:24,145 --> 01:21:26,281
She'll have to fend for herself.

1922
01:21:26,281 --> 01:21:29,284
Looks like she's already
shifting back to her old ways.

1923
01:21:29,284 --> 01:21:31,486
Just what you'd expect
from her type.

1924
01:21:31,486 --> 01:21:33,822
Give her plenty of something
and she doesn't want it.

1925
01:21:33,822 --> 01:21:34,522
Take it away.

1926
01:21:34,522 --> 01:21:36,591
And she cries for it anyway.

1927
01:21:36,591 --> 01:21:38,727
Her Sunday off won't be mine,
thank goodness.

1928
01:21:38,727 --> 01:21:40,629
So she won't be in my way.

1929
01:21:40,629 --> 01:21:42,864
Nor mine. Fanny laughed.

1930
01:21:42,864 --> 01:21:45,300
I thought your Sunday
and hers would line up.

1931
01:21:45,300 --> 01:21:46,935
They should really.

1932
01:21:46,935 --> 01:21:48,470
I've swapped with the cook.

1933
01:21:48,470 --> 01:21:49,604
Why did you do that?

1934
01:21:49,604 --> 01:21:52,340
Fanny caught the knowing
look on Sarah's face.

1935
01:21:52,340 --> 01:21:53,341
Well, if you must know,

1936
01:21:53,341 --> 01:21:56,011
I wanted to make sure my day off
didn't match Kate's.

1937
01:21:56,011 --> 01:21:56,811
Two's company.

1938
01:21:56,811 --> 01:21:58,380
Three's a crowd, you know.

1939
01:21:58,380 --> 01:22:00,048
Oh, you sly thing.

1940
01:22:00,048 --> 01:22:02,317
Tell me all about it. Right now.

1941
01:22:02,317 --> 01:22:05,387
The two quickly became engrossed
in sharing confidences.

1942
01:22:05,387 --> 01:22:07,656
Forgetting about Kate
for the moment.

1943
01:22:07,656 --> 01:22:10,058
Finally,
the three weeks came to an end

1944
01:22:10,058 --> 01:22:12,494
and Kate had her long awaited
Sunday off.

1945
01:22:12,494 --> 01:22:16,231
Never before had
she felt such a need for rest.

1946
01:22:16,231 --> 01:22:17,933
The days had passed quickly,

1947
01:22:17,933 --> 01:22:19,968
but the working hours
in her new position

1948
01:22:19,968 --> 01:22:22,604
were much longer than they had
been at Headington.

1949
01:22:22,604 --> 01:22:25,674
Her life now lacked
the restfulness it once had.

1950
01:22:25,674 --> 01:22:27,375
The lack of order
in the household's

1951
01:22:27,375 --> 01:22:30,412
routine made the work harder,
and Kate realized

1952
01:22:30,412 --> 01:22:32,881
just how much more difficult
it was to maintain

1953
01:22:32,881 --> 01:22:35,850
the same level of cleanliness
in Manchester's smoke

1954
01:22:35,850 --> 01:22:39,087
filled air, compared to the pure
country air of Haddington.

1955
01:22:39,087 --> 01:22:42,424
Clothes and furniture
seem to need constant attention.

1956
01:22:42,424 --> 01:22:43,325
Kate wanted to be

1957
01:22:43,325 --> 01:22:46,728
as neat in the city as she had
been in the village, but to do

1958
01:22:46,728 --> 01:22:50,999
so she had to change her gowns
more often and work much harder.

1959
01:22:50,999 --> 01:22:53,969
She had always managed
to put in a stitch in time,

1960
01:22:53,969 --> 01:22:55,804
but now she found it difficult
to find

1961
01:22:55,804 --> 01:22:59,574
even a few moments
for such tasks until bedtime.

1962
01:22:59,574 --> 01:23:03,645
And by then she was often too
tired to do anything.

1963
01:23:03,645 --> 01:23:06,948
These three weeks had shown her
that the extra wages she earned

1964
01:23:06,948 --> 01:23:10,385
would barely cover the increased
wear and tear of her clothes,

1965
01:23:10,385 --> 01:23:12,887
and she would have to give up
the hope of sending more money

1966
01:23:12,887 --> 01:23:15,423
to her mother from her earnings.

1967
01:23:15,423 --> 01:23:15,890
Eight had

1968
01:23:15,890 --> 01:23:18,560
some sources of comfort,
however.

1969
01:23:18,560 --> 01:23:20,729
The children
at home were recovering

1970
01:23:20,729 --> 01:23:23,298
and there was no loss
among the little flock.

1971
01:23:23,298 --> 01:23:26,401
Friends and neighbors
had been kind and hopeful.

1972
01:23:26,401 --> 01:23:28,470
Mrs. Beatson
had increased her aid

1973
01:23:28,470 --> 01:23:31,806
according to the family's need,
and there was every sign

1974
01:23:31,806 --> 01:23:34,042
that this difficult season
would be managed

1975
01:23:34,042 --> 01:23:35,844
better than expected.

1976
01:23:35,844 --> 01:23:38,013
He wept as she read the letter,

1977
01:23:38,013 --> 01:23:41,282
this time written in her
mother's own unpolished hand.

1978
01:23:41,282 --> 01:23:44,953
But it was all the more precious
for being her own words

1979
01:23:44,953 --> 01:23:46,254
from her heart.

1980
01:23:46,254 --> 01:23:47,922
Kate echoed the sentiment.

1981
01:23:47,922 --> 01:23:49,524
I do believe that Mrs.

1982
01:23:49,524 --> 01:23:53,428
Beatson is one of the best
and dearest ladies in the world.

1983
01:23:53,428 --> 01:23:57,632
May God bless her and repay her
is my daily prayer.

1984
01:23:57,632 --> 01:23:59,934
Kate was also relieved to know
that Mrs.

1985
01:23:59,934 --> 01:24:02,837
May brick
was satisfied with her work.

1986
01:24:02,837 --> 01:24:03,872
Ashley, the head

1987
01:24:03,872 --> 01:24:06,941
nurse, told her this, mentioning
that Mrs.

1988
01:24:06,941 --> 01:24:09,611
May brick had noticed
how orderly she was

1989
01:24:09,611 --> 01:24:12,180
and how thoroughly she did her
tasks.

1990
01:24:12,180 --> 01:24:15,183
However, she also wondered
if Kate would be strong enough

1991
01:24:15,183 --> 01:24:16,785
for the demands of the job.

1992
01:24:16,785 --> 01:24:18,686
Did Mrs. Mabrouk
ask you to tell me?

1993
01:24:18,686 --> 01:24:19,587
She was pleased.

1994
01:24:19,587 --> 01:24:21,189
Kate's face brightened.

1995
01:24:21,189 --> 01:24:24,325
No, but I thought you'd like
to know what she said.

1996
01:24:24,325 --> 01:24:28,196
The mistress rarely praises
a girl directly.

1997
01:24:28,196 --> 01:24:31,066
I think she's afraid
it might give her a big head,

1998
01:24:31,066 --> 01:24:34,202
or make her want more wages
or something.

1999
01:24:34,202 --> 01:24:37,105
Kate's smile faded
a little at this.

2000
01:24:37,105 --> 01:24:38,640
It was so different from Mrs.

2001
01:24:38,640 --> 01:24:39,574
Beatson,

2002
01:24:39,574 --> 01:24:43,044
who was always looking for
opportunities to offer praise.

2003
01:24:43,044 --> 01:24:45,280
Mrs. Bateman's kind words
had often

2004
01:24:45,280 --> 01:24:46,681
given Kate the encouragement

2005
01:24:46,681 --> 01:24:49,684
she needed to make extra efforts
and improve.

2006
01:24:49,684 --> 01:24:50,919
These occasional visits

2007
01:24:50,919 --> 01:24:54,422
to the nursery were Kate's
greatest comfort.

2008
01:24:54,422 --> 01:24:57,859
Ashley, a motherly woman, often
said a kind word

2009
01:24:57,859 --> 01:24:59,294
to the lonely girl.

2010
01:24:59,294 --> 01:25:02,730
The children also reminded
Kate of the ones at Harrington,

2011
01:25:02,730 --> 01:25:04,232
whom she had dearly loved,

2012
01:25:04,232 --> 01:25:07,368
as well as the younger siblings
she had left behind at home.

2013
01:25:07,368 --> 01:25:11,072
Though the circumstances were
different, the dear child faces,

2014
01:25:11,072 --> 01:25:13,241
whether from the hall
or the cottage,

2015
01:25:13,241 --> 01:25:15,777
were all gathered together
in her mind's eye.

2016
01:25:15,777 --> 01:25:18,646
Yet Kate had never felt
so lonely.

2017
01:25:18,646 --> 01:25:21,316
Sarah didn't
concern herself much with her

2018
01:25:21,316 --> 01:25:24,385
except to tease her
for being so serious.

2019
01:25:24,385 --> 01:25:26,821
Fanny Ellis was too wrapped up
in her own affairs

2020
01:25:26,821 --> 01:25:29,424
to notice
whether Kate was happy or not,

2021
01:25:29,424 --> 01:25:32,794
and the cook, absorbed in her
culinary work,

2022
01:25:32,794 --> 01:25:36,464
only talked about food, dishes
and recipes.

2023
01:25:36,464 --> 01:25:39,300
Getting grumpy
if anything went wrong.

2024
01:25:39,300 --> 01:25:42,337
Kate had no choice but to listen
patiently when the cook

2025
01:25:42,337 --> 01:25:47,342
decided to speak outside
the house, she knew no one.

2026
01:25:47,342 --> 01:25:48,910
On her first Sunday out.

2027
01:25:48,910 --> 01:25:52,680
Kate hesitated, unsure
which direction to take.

2028
01:25:52,680 --> 01:25:54,649
However,
she had already resolved

2029
01:25:54,649 --> 01:25:58,153
to spend the day
in a place of worship, following

2030
01:25:58,153 --> 01:26:01,389
a stream of people clearly
headed in the same direction.

2031
01:26:01,389 --> 01:26:02,724
She soon found herself

2032
01:26:02,724 --> 01:26:04,626
joining in prayer
and praise as part

2033
01:26:04,626 --> 01:26:07,128
of a Christian congregation
once more.

2034
01:26:07,128 --> 01:26:11,533
O the comfort, rest and peace,
it brought Kate to once again

2035
01:26:11,533 --> 01:26:14,936
experience the Sabbath blessings
she had taken for granted.

2036
01:26:14,936 --> 01:26:16,037
Never realizing

2037
01:26:16,037 --> 01:26:19,307
how much she would miss them
until they were gone.

2038
01:26:19,307 --> 01:26:22,010
The words from the scripture
readings, Psalms,

2039
01:26:22,010 --> 01:26:25,613
and the preacher's sermon seemed
directed specifically at her,

2040
01:26:25,613 --> 01:26:27,182
and she listened intently.

2041
01:26:27,182 --> 01:26:30,785
Not wanting to miss
a single word to her fellow

2042
01:26:30,785 --> 01:26:34,222
servants surprise, Kate returned
to the house, ate her dinner

2043
01:26:34,222 --> 01:26:37,859
with them, and took her
turn serving during lunch.

2044
01:26:37,859 --> 01:26:39,961
You didn't need to come back
until 10:00.

2045
01:26:39,961 --> 01:26:41,462
Sarah was astonished

2046
01:26:41,462 --> 01:26:44,165
to see Kate return
in the middle of the day.

2047
01:26:44,165 --> 01:26:46,734
I knew that,
but where else could I go?

2048
01:26:46,734 --> 01:26:49,037
I don't have any family
in Manchester.

2049
01:26:49,037 --> 01:26:51,406
There's plenty of places to walk
around and plenty to see.

2050
01:26:51,406 --> 01:26:54,375
Even on a Sunday, though,
the shops are closed

2051
01:26:54,375 --> 01:26:55,510
before your next day off.

2052
01:26:55,510 --> 01:26:57,445
Let me help you plan something.

2053
01:26:57,445 --> 01:26:59,581
I suppose you won't mind
staying in this afternoon.

2054
01:26:59,581 --> 01:27:02,317
And if that's the case,
maybe you could take my shift.

2055
01:27:02,317 --> 01:27:04,886
It's only answering the door
if anyone comes.

2056
01:27:04,886 --> 01:27:06,487
I'm going out again, Sarah.

2057
01:27:06,487 --> 01:27:07,989
I need all the time I can get.

2058
01:27:07,989 --> 01:27:10,725
Since I only have one Sunday
out of three.

2059
01:27:10,725 --> 01:27:13,261
Kate didn't
say exactly what she needed

2060
01:27:13,261 --> 01:27:16,965
and Sarah didn't guess,
but replied, fair enough.

2061
01:27:16,965 --> 01:27:17,932
I can't blame you.

2062
01:27:17,932 --> 01:27:20,201
I'm just surprised you came back
so early.

2063
01:27:20,201 --> 01:27:21,903
Had she followed Kate,

2064
01:27:21,903 --> 01:27:24,072
she would have seen her
return to the same church

2065
01:27:24,072 --> 01:27:28,209
she had visited that morning,
hoping for an afternoon service.

2066
01:27:28,209 --> 01:27:29,344
There was none

2067
01:27:29,344 --> 01:27:32,981
but a kind person told her
about a Bible class for adults,

2068
01:27:32,981 --> 01:27:34,415
open to anyone,

2069
01:27:34,415 --> 01:27:36,985
and offered to show her the room
where it was held.

2070
01:27:36,985 --> 01:27:40,054
He thanked him
and gladly joined the others,

2071
01:27:40,054 --> 01:27:43,091
spending a fruitful hour
in the class.

2072
01:27:43,091 --> 01:27:46,628
At the end,
the teacher, a gray haired lady,

2073
01:27:46,628 --> 01:27:50,765
spoke a few kind words to her
and invited her to return.

2074
01:27:50,765 --> 01:27:52,400
Come when you can.

2075
01:27:52,400 --> 01:27:54,602
You will always be welcome.

2076
01:27:54,602 --> 01:27:57,772
She shook Kate's hand and said,
good bye for now.

2077
01:27:57,772 --> 01:28:01,609
It was like her Haddington days,
seeing that kind face

2078
01:28:01,609 --> 01:28:05,013
and hearing the comforting words
about God's love in Christ

2079
01:28:05,013 --> 01:28:09,017
Jesus, the blood that cleanses
from all sin, and the blessed

2080
01:28:09,017 --> 01:28:12,787
Holy Spirit who reveals our need
for salvation

2081
01:28:12,787 --> 01:28:15,990
and points us to the Savior,
the Lamb of God, who takes away

2082
01:28:15,990 --> 01:28:17,325
the sins of the world.

2083
01:28:17,325 --> 01:28:20,495
Again Kate walked homeward,
taking a longer route

2084
01:28:20,495 --> 01:28:23,197
for the sake of quiet reflection
outdoors.

2085
01:28:23,197 --> 01:28:27,235
There was no peaceful refuge
waiting for her inside.

2086
01:28:27,235 --> 01:28:29,671
Cook always spent early Sunday
afternoons

2087
01:28:29,671 --> 01:28:31,172
resting in the large attic

2088
01:28:31,172 --> 01:28:34,742
they shared, only rising in time
to prepare the late dinner.

2089
01:28:34,742 --> 01:28:36,577
There was no quiet little room

2090
01:28:36,577 --> 01:28:39,580
where Kate could think, read or
pray.

2091
01:28:39,580 --> 01:28:40,715
But God is everywhere.